THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

I'm back!
5 days free of PMO.
2 days meditation streak.
Thanks to everyone for the supportive messages.
Also thanks to everyone fighting to keep our challenge alive.

Literally 0 urges the past days.
I was wandering around Spain (a beautiful country indeed), seeing all sorts of interesting things and meeting kind people. Also food
My trip also gave me time to think about how I want to proceed with my life and build the future I want. I have work to do.

Can someone please navigate me a bit on where we should post now? I got a bit confused with all the different threads.

 

Welcome back!! And welcome to Spain

Keep posting here until Kingfisher creates another challenge then everyone will move to this.

 

Day 116

I was in the bus trying to do the things well more or less and

Spoiler: Possible triggering statement

when I walk to the door I watched towards the end of the bus and all of the sudden a girl with big legs and tiny skirt just opened her legs to leave the seat and shown me and everyone her pink panties

(non triggering version I saw something that I shouldn't) and this for me is one of my major triggers that lead me directly to the bathroom to MO.

I resisted but the image and urge are still there and tomorrow I'll be again home alone and my wife traveling.

I am feeling after the reboot a major desire for women in general. Of course my chance of cheating is increasing and I need to deal with it also. Now if I watch a musical video with dance I see the women prettier more sexy. I sometimes desire to go to a bar and have relationships with a wore. I think that is the lack of novelty without porn well the brain look for real novelty. I think this is part of the process.

Just i wanted share my feelings

Stay Strong!!!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

8 days Free of PMO.

Keep training!

 

Ah, thanks for the link! So mods caved in to the pressure? I see, I see...
One would think it's a standard practice in forum moderation to close old and outdated threads, especially if there are duplicate ones which are more up to date—it's funny to see how such a trivial and common sense thing can create such a turmoil between people lol.
Forum dramas are weird man.

Anyway: day 83!

 

Yes and this is what we made them understand. This forum is not exactly a regular one. Is our accountability place. It is like you go to your session of anynomous alcoholic and suddenly the door is closed with a message telling you that this group was closed and you can walk to another place where there is a similar one. Go and join them.

 

Starting from Day 0 today. Have been hitting gym daily and Now I will be adding daily meditation from today. Been meditating but having gaps now and then but now I am looking for consistency.

 

Day 315
I'm back

 

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Day 27

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

9 days Free of PMO.

Keep training!

 

After that probably was your last one. I remember my last time I had a super urge with dizzy effect and everything. Then I grabbed my phone in autopilot entirely, and when I was about to type the URL, I felt I don't want to do this. Left the phone in the table and went to the bathroom to MO. It wasn't my last MO but my last porn.

 

6 days free of PMO.
3 days meditation streak.
I have the flu today and feel exhausted. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow.
@stronaut2021 I had similar difficulties with intrusive, persistent thoughts about actions that are against my moral beliefs.
I didn't do anything I would regret fortunately but I suffered a lot because of these thoughts and caused suffering to my ex.
Remember that no matter how persistent or true they feel, you are not your thoughts.
If you continue down the path of healing eventually your mind will arrive in a healthy state of equilibrium where you can be at peace.
I know because that's what happened to me. Keep going, don't give up. You got this!

 

Thanks a lot. Your words give me hope and are reconforting.

 

Day 117

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Day 0

Hi again.
I have been absent for almost a week, luckily not because of a binge, but because of sickness, and a school trip.

But i failed today.
I have for the last 2 og 3 days allowed myself to fantasise and think about pmo and relapsing, and i did it a lot today which led to even more massive urges, which led to relapse.

I have been sick, and that was the excuse for fantasising. I was sitting in the bus and we were driving in the hills, and i was very sick, almost puking.
Remembering your ideals and values and goals to redirect the urge and do responsive techniques when urges arise, is very hard in such moments. It can be done, no doubt, but i didn’t.
And so i started thinking about it, and it also eased my sickness a bit, and that was the prime rationalisation i made up in my head.

But of course, we cant feed the addiction no matter what. Because the pain from it is much greater than from any sickness.
So i should just have hold on, and made sure that whatever i do, i dont relapse. That is the most important thing by far, i think for all of us.

But on the bright side, this supported my theory of the thought, the images in the head of porn or fantasising about girls, being the beginning of all relapses.
And it had been working for a month, and was working, i just didnt do it, and thats why i relapsed.

So what i learned from this relapse is that, no matter what my condition or circumstance is, i must not do it, and do my responsive techniques.