The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 9

 

Check in day 50

 

Day 55. You reached Amon Hen, a hill above the western banks of the Anduin. By royal decree, you´re a Warrior of Gondor now!
Made warrior after a long and fulfilling journey.

 

Day 17 complete - Elf

 

temptations resisted: 0
days: 0
Congratulations @Anas778 @Reghu

 

Day 41!

 

V low dopamine yesterday (week 2) followed by dreams and nocturnal emissions last night. Just goes to show that without having even looked at P last week, the fishing and e site still overloaded my system with unnatural dopamine levels. Stay strong and free brothers - do not fish!

 

Day 0

 

The day doesn't started so well so many thoughts in my mostly negative but what can this is the only place where I shear my feelings sometimes I dont feel like I have family or a friend to talk to its not like I never tried to make friends but it doesn't last long enough may be I am a boring or something and because of the COVID it become worst, now i dont feel any connection to the society, its just me now...lets see if it gets any better.

 

Day 85 - Warrior
Exiting the swamp you found something shining behind a small rock: a ring made of mithril and set with a white gem. Lady Galadriel appears.
"This is Nenya, the Ring of Adamant, and I am its Keeper. I give it to you mighty Traveler, so it may protect you against lust evil."
Quest Magic – Nenya

 

Don't worry, bro. Be yourself, be persistent and you'll find good friendships. You are a good person. And good people need good friends. It may take a while to find one, but it will happen for sure.

 

Day 7.

I wish Happy Easter (for those who celebrate)!

I like Easter, because in my view, it's the holiday that tells much about our lives. No matter how dark and difficult life gets, light and goodness ALWAYS win.

Day started ok for me. Got up on time. Went for a long walk. This year I won't go to the village for Easter. Mom is working in hospital today.

Yesterday calisthenics was a fantastic - real good weather outside. I feel that I am getting stronger. Pike push ups don't scare me anymore. So, maybe it's time for handstands. I will start with frog stands, of course. But before that I have to learn correct warm ups, because I am going to more interesting territories.

Hardmodes are not easy today. Quite tempted. Sadly, relapse is still an option for me, dishonest behaviour is still an option. I don't know what to do, so that it wouldn't. How much do I have to change?

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Next reward - denim jacket on July 3rd.
Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 7.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day.

 

Day 347

 

Streak duration :6 hrs

 

Day 3, trod on!

3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.

I am on the Ferry mates! across the river to the unknown we go!

 

Day 7. II.

Hardmodes is a safe. Fell for a nap instead of pmo. It's not the first time, when nap saves me. Calms hormones I guess.

I am feeling ok now. Just that I am in this procrastinatory mode. I have one thing to do today want it or not. But it is so much fun to delay it until late evening. Why everything becomes so much more interesting, when during procrastination?

Jokes and superficial talk aside. What is the truth today? One person hurt me last week emotionally. And week later I am still hurting. So, lots of thoughts what to do.

Speaking about the hardmodes journey, I think I am not that determined as I was after relapse. It's easy to claim that I want a year of hardmodes in the beginning of the streak, but as the days go by I want it less and less, until I relapse. And then I want it again... I don't like this cycle. What could be the remedy? I am not sure. I'll just try to remind me the moods, with which I started this streak. No matter what happens in my life, this is important to me and this streak has to continue. At least 83 more days until I earn the jacket. The worrying thing is today, when I almost relapsed I forgot about all of that. Even the jacket. What kept me in right minsdet was that I promised my friends to survive at least until Tuesday.

Journey continues...

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Next reward - denim jacket on July 3rd.
Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 7.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friend's!

22 day's Free of PMO.

Stay Strong!

22 days – You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir.

@LuckyMan Well done on staying cleaning during the stressful period, I hope things get better!

 

Day 7. III.

Wanted to sleep, so went to sleep on time. But I can't. Tried to do the body scan - didn't help.

I am tempted. I would like to masturbate very much. Yeah... It's my weak point. I relapsed many times before the sleep in the past. I hope I won't relapse this night.

I hope this stays manageable and I won't have to run outside at night. But it's completely valid option if the things get bad.

No matter what happens in my life, this is important to me and this streak has to continue.

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Next reward - denim jacket on July 3rd.
Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 7.
No matter what happens in my life, this is important to me and this streak has to continue.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day.

 

Day 2 Completed

The sward was blue today, I was sad but @Paul S. Helped me keep going with his motivating words. It happens with all ou us time to time that we forget all important things when we are about to relapse and the cycle tries to continue but you have to remind it to ur self that what was the purpose of the streek what the life without pmo will feel like no urges, no anxiety , no dispersion and best of all that cool Dannim jacket. Procrastination is kind of a move frome pmo, it's the badest that can happen to u because after all we want to get rid of pmo because it is taking a good amount of time of our life and wastes it, procrastination is just like that think about it, so no matter what stick to your day schedule it will help you to stay focus. And be strong brother.

 

Day 10