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Day 103 check in.
Had another long and busy day at work. Things are going well for the moment. I've been having some strange dreams lately and I kind of like them. Nothing related to pmo, more like a spy / adventure type movie. I find it funny and I can't wait to see what will I dream next.

Stay strong everone, one day at a time!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

5 Day's Free of PMO.

Keep Training!

 

Day 1

 

Checking in, no idea how I made it through this evening.
Going to sleep now.

 

Day 33!

 

Day 433!

 

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Day 388

 

Urges all morning.

Surfing for nofap fuel and I found some.

I remember the last time I made it over a month. I spent every tough day hitting that emergency button to find a reason to go on, something to hold onto to keep me from falling off a cliff.

 

Day 8, another weekend

 

Day 1

 

Day 40 saiyans

Still feeling a ton of emotion, probably due to healing. However the main ones are def anger and hatred. Its amazing how much of a passive person this demon makes us into. I realize that a lot of the people in my life, family included, are only around because I would tolerate the things they would say and do under the guise of theyre blood or theyre just messing around. No more, malice takes may forms. We have to fight it.
Fight or die saiyans

 

This made me smile. Well said, we can put up and ignore a lot of bullshit from family and friends when we are under the influence. I can't understand why.

But once the pmo's influence starts to fade all the bs becomes so transparent that is difficult to keep your calm.

Better days will come. Use this clarity to find better solutions to your problems instead of wasting time on others.

 

Day 104. Spend a lot of time out and with my little one. Happy days.

 

Relapsed, struggled til about 2 and then gave in to urges. Best run this month and I've been getting much better about not snowballing through days after a relapse. I am hitting a wall at 7 days or so and I am working to get past it.

My biggest challenges at the moment are the 7 day mark and the weekends.

I feel ashamed of relapsing, or that I am supposed to be ashamed for relapsing. I'm not, I feel good.
I did my best and I failed. Giving up would definitely result in me feeling worse.
I'm proud that I was able to post here quickly and take accountability for my actions. I am serious about my recovery.

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

6 Day's Free of PMO.

Keep Training!

 

Day 2

 

Day 9 complete.

I woke up this morning to do CrossFit training, then I got to practice Japanese language after. And I once again spent 15 minutes of meditating.

Now I started over on reading a book about stoic philosophy and the history of Marcus Aurelius. It's a really helpful book, I got it on my 27th birthday. I read it twice, and now I'm reading it for the third time.

 

Day 34!

 

Day 171

Never dreamt of getting this far. Didn't sleep well last night (woke up at 5AM). Could've been one or a combination of three things:

1. Was too busy on Saturday (went to the gym for 2,5 hours, then dancing for 3 hours and then drove 1,5 hours to go eat sushi with a friend and was home late a night).
2. Sushi was not that great and a lot of salt, additives and mayonaise was used
3. I have a first date planned for tonight with a woman today that looks very attractive on all (non photoShopped) pictures she'd send me (at least 6) and we had a great conversation on the phone and she also seems very enthusiastic about me.

So trying to chill a bit and hopefully have a refreshing nap and pray that the girl in real life is as great as she seems. Wish me luck everyone!