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8 Day's Free of PMO.

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Day 36!

 

Day 436!

 

Day 4

 

Day 1 - Low Class Warrior
Let's go!

The day after relapse I don't find that anything looks attractive which is a bonus because I don't feel pmo urges so much.

Other than relapsing I'm keep up with my weight loss goal and getting good sleep which is important for that because I can get hungry the later I stay awake. I also got an honors with distinction in my class which means I got the highest marks. That is really surprising to me and I wasn't expecting it. That should be confidence boost for me that I've been needing and it will look good on my resume.

 

Usually a matter of the feeling of being heard or appreaciated. Did you argue or tried to listen empathatically and tried to find our what she needs? Never come up with solutions, first let her vent, listen, try to guess what's bothering her and she needs and then the solution can be presented. Not here to preach or tell you how to deal with it, but this one was a biggy for me and helped a lot once I realized this.

 

Day 173

Feeling a bit stressed / little down. I've been quite active in dating and had a few (I thought) pretty good first dates. Somehow it just doesn't really work out while I think I haven't made any mistakes. One girl I dated last week Thursday thanked me the day after the date but still hasn't replied to my message for over 2 days. Other girl I dated Sunday was pretty interesting but a bit harsh / direct / demanding in her way of communication. She also thanked me yesterday for the fun first date, but still got this feeling she's not really interested in me. I'm also not sure if we're really compatible.
Anyway, dating is not easy, especially when you're getting older (I'm 38 now). But it can be a bit depressing / stressful. No urge to relapse to Porn, but I am MO-ing more than normal last couple of days. I still notice that's the way how I am wired to deal with this kind of stress. Not always though. But I am allowing myself to do it, because a couple of times in the past it did lead to a relapse when I tried to not MO.

But in the end, there is no alternative... I just got to keep working on it and have faith I will meet the one. One thing is for sure though: I've never been more prepared and capable of being in a healthy relationship ever before. Physical, sexual and emotional.

 

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Day 391

 

Day 43 saiyans

Still feeling really angry and hateful at myself, a lot of repressed emotion and bad memories are resurfacing. Theres a lot of stuff I let slide in the past thats bringing me no end of rage, but that just foes to show how horrible this demon is. It makes us numb and weak. Keep going saiyans
Fight or die!

 

9 days free of PMO, day 10 in progress.
I hosted an old friend the last days. The guy was difficult and is not doing well in life. He doesn't really get it though.
I was inspired / shocked into asking feedback on my behaviour from my other friends because of that.
That way I can see what they can see but I can't and hopefully fix it.

On other news I managed to do a band assisted full front lever which is insane!
It's crazy to consider the progress that I have made in the past 2 years

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

9 Day's Free of PMO.

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Day 107 check in. All good.

Stay strong everyone!

 

Day 37!

 

Day 1

@JB39 Yes it’s really strange that I’m caught in this trap. I know that PMO is #1 no matter what else fails, but my brain has trouble separating everything.

 

Day 392

 

Day 5 check in

 

10 days free of PMO, day 11 in progress.

 

Day 44 saiyans

Lets use the rage and evolve into our new selves. Some people dont belong in our lives, and others deserve to suffer. Keep going.
Fight or die!