THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Thank you for your kind words brother.

It's strange these days. In the past, it was usually a "trigger" that would create urges and temptation. Now even without any sort of trigger, I just do it on a whim for no reason at all. There's nothing I can even avoid to not impulsively do it.

But... I will not lose myself in despair. I will try my best to make June a clean month. I need to organize myself and my goals better, and declutter all distractions. I still have ideas to try and will not lose hope.

 

Day 51 saiyans

Still working on a sleep schedule. Been keeping up with training. I know my path saiyans. I know what I must do. For so long ive kept myself distracted with this demon, food, video games etx but my calling is now stronger than any of them. Fight or die!

 

Day 5

 

Day 20

Again, I'm really sorry for being absent. Been too busy.

As always, I woke up to train in crossfit, the workout was way too easy though.

I kept on practicing on Japanese language, and I'm improving a lot more.

I finally got to finish reading the book 'How To Think Like a Roman Emperor'. I got to understand more and more about Stoicism, and I'll be puttting it to practice and to test it out in the real world. And suddenly to control more my reactions to what will happen and to control and overcome my anger and my desires, especially my reaction to physical pain.

 

Day 3!

 

Day 182 and the official 1/2 year mark!

I thought it would be yesterday, but I forgot May has 31 days so today is my official 1/2 year mark of complete and I mean complete abstinence of porn. That means: no porn and not even (remotely) erotic images at all and even no reading about porn stars or semi erotic stories online. The only nakedness I've experienced the last 6 months was when I was with a woman I dated for 1-1,5 months. I keep repeating it; yes I have improved a lot on all areas (sleep, productivity, focus, calmness of mind and ability to have sex with a real woman). But I know I am not fully healed and I am aware that this might even take another 1/2 year to even 2 years to really heal up. I will always be this porn addiction, so I cannot have moderate porn exposure, I will need to abstain from it for the rest of my life and I accept this faith.

Here's a very interesting / motivating video from Mark Manson that inspired me a lot. Hope it will inspire you too.


Have a great day my fellow warriors, together we can get out of this and at least have a better life than yesterday.

 

Day 3
Low- class warrior
yesterday I was feeling very anxious but i found a friend who was also doing NoFap, i feel like doing it but im doing better than yesterday

 

"(悟) Low-Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER CHALLENGE ◄"

 

Day 4,last night, I had spermatorrhea, I don't know why, no girl, no porn,just spermatorrhea at 3:00,maybe it's a habit, it is a problem I need to relsove.

 

Day 52 saiyans

Still feeling a bit tired, but in a good way. Bought some dip bars on the weekend and started doing them and boy am I feeling it. Haven't done dips in a long while. But I truly surprised my self at how many could do. I've truly internalized the realization that its all up to us. No matter what happens in our lives or what we want to accomplish, its up to us to do something about it. Other people don't matter, and honestly neither do their lives. Keep training saiyans.
Fight or die!

 

Day 21. That's three weeks now. I'm truly glad that May was a far better month than April ever was. I got to spend the rest of the month without PMO'ing. It wasn't easy, but it was a huge accomplishment to me.

Now that we're in the first day of June, new challenges await as the journey continues.

 

Day 398 & 399 & 400
Finally.....
Mastered Ultra Instinct

 

I feel the same way actually. I relapsed the last few days and feel quite defeated about it.
It feels terrible not being able to do a month in a row when you have done 4 in the past.
I think you are right @JB39, the only way is to keep trying and let the addict self know that he should shut the fuck up.

 

@Baki Hanma wow! Congratulations brother!

 

Day 116 ongoing.
Keeping busy, some cravings after work, I'm grateful for nofap, as I would have easily landed on a porn page instead.
I have delayed starting a journal for a while now, and this is because I lost momentum on my recovery reading.
I need to double down on the PMO fight.

@Lexro84 I like Mark Manson as well, read his first book a couple of times. I don't remember reading about the inverted curve in there, but it does make sense.

Stay strong everyone! One day at a time!

 

Day 4!

 

I tend to come to the conclusion in my experience that over complications make things more challenging as the complexity can trigger a feeling of overwhelm which can lead to a breakdown for me. At the end of the day we all have our own respective views as to what’s most important to us and get to set our open bottom lines. As for me i’ll keep it simple- NO PMO

 

Last lapse back into porn for me was Monday night. Haven’t fallen down any rabbit holes this week, though I do find myself sometimes fantasizing in the shower and letting that be a gateway to the M-O part of the cycle for me. Just calling out the data I’ve been observing in my own subjective experience this week. That happened twice for me at shower time, second event being yesterday afternoon during a cold shower after work. First time the urge was so strong it came up during a cold shower. Anyway resetting from there. Day 1


(悟) Low Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE ◄

 

Day 22... I guess. I had a wet dream last night.

 

Day 401

Thanks brother!