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Relapsed yesterday, and now i feel emotional, depressed..

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Gadget, Nov 2, 2015.

  1. Gadget

    Gadget Fapstronaut

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    I had a relapse yesterday...

    And now i feel way over emotional... I just feel sadness... This whole morning i am just crying.. Feeling hopeless, alone, tired... No motivation to do anything....

    This is just getting worse...

    I lost my friends, girlfriend and her two kids because of these damn relapses...

    male, 32y
     
  2. Booster

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    Try to stop being so hard on yourself @Gadget, Put life on hold, while you give up the habit. I had to lock myself away through the withdrawals, expect a few hickups, expect to feel like crap, but its really just your brain craving dopamine.

    Your on the right path pal so just hang in there
     
  3. Gadget

    Gadget Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your reply...

    I've been trying to do a 90 days for like 2 years now...
    Heck, its so foggy in my head right now..i even cant think anymore
     
  4. Gadget

    Gadget Fapstronaut

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    Let me just wright this off..

    For the last 2 years i cant find any joy anymore.. Everything is just colorless, odorless, plain... Exept the negative feelings.... I can feel those daily just fine...sheez...
    I am already giong to a therapist. But we wont make any progress as far as I can feel...

    I am just battleling more things at once.. And so far i havent been able to coop with it..

    - lost my girl and her 2 kids recently.. Heavvy sadness..
    - weed addiction
    - porn addiction

    It feels its just too much... cant handle it.. Brain shuts down... Cant think.. only feel thîs horrible saddness..

    Oh, and dont mind my grammar oke.. I know its a lil off. But english isnt my native language..
     
  5. Phibz

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    You simply have to be ready to want this more than that. I used to read about people that had transmuted their sexual energy. And I used to think that was just something for spiritual gurus and the like. I had no idea that someone like me would come to understand this. But I did it. Was it easy? Fuck no. You have to conquer yourself. You are your most powerful enemy. And you can't fix a fucked up mind with a fucked up mind. You need people to check you often. Because were all idiots when we get here. Follow what the community suggests. Get educated about this. Check out yourbrainonporn.com. Get an AP. You need to be re-programmed for success. You are still convinced that this is not possible for you. Giving up PMO was a leap into the dark for me. I didn't think I could exist without it. I wish that we could see beyond the struggle. It would be easier to take the plunge into darkness knowing that it would be worth it. You have to be willing to endure. Your pain will either break you or motivate you to grow. Get busy now. Don't wait until your 40s like me.
     
  6. Gadget

    Gadget Fapstronaut

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    Thank you...!
     
  7. NFI_Freedom

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    Hey man. I totally know what you're going through. I just returned to start it all over again, feels like a massive task, but I'm kinda excited because the pain everyone experiences when they relapse is gonna go. I've felt it when I went 52 days without PMO. Then you can start picking up and fighting life again ! :p

    Good luck, buddy :)
     

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