Reaching the top, an interesting theory.

Hi everybody.

I hope someone could read this journal, my name is Miguel, I'm from Peru and my native language is spanish, as you probably know, that's why my english it's not that good , I'm 20 years old and I started watching porn probably since I was 12, It was natural for me, my parents used to tell me that it wasn't wrong, "It's normal in a man or woman to watch sometimes porn", they used to say that to me, so I grown up thinking that watching porn was good and masturbation as well.

I also used to believe that watching porn could help me at the time of having sex, was like getting prepare for the big moment on my life, having the knowledge of how to performance during that moment was critical for me, so I was just "preparing" myself, you wanna hear something funny? At the time of having my first sexual experience I realized that I had, and still have, ED (Erectile dysfunction).

What I felt in that moment is that I prepared myself for nothing, I was really confused, I was wondering myself why I could have ED, I thought it was something that happens only to old man; after researching in websites and books, I realized that PORN was the main guilty, I also found this Brain Buddy App and start my journey of leaving porn and masturbation behind.

I started using the app and quitting PMO on August 26th but until today my longer strike has been 11 days clean of PMO after that I entered into a vicious circle of quitting and relapsing again, that's why today I'm deciding to quit PMO for good, and I really hope I could use all your help on my way, day by day until the day I can say "I beat you"

I also would like to share with you guys something that I discovered when I was getting knowledge about cases of Porn addiction, If you get up this point I just wanna say thank you, this probably could really help you and change your way of seeing things.

I discovered that our lifes, who you are right now, the house where you live, the job that you have, how rich you are, how fit you are, everything came from decisions that we made in the past, seems pretty obvious right but it's not, the line of the time is very unpredictable, as we've seen in a lot of movies about time travel, a tiny thing in the past could change the future in a dramatic way, that lead me to think that exist many alternative futures, this means that your present , where you are right now, was your future in the past, your decisions made this, your present. What I´m trying to say is that you are strong enough to control you're future, any decision that you take now however small is, could define your future, you could decide to give up PORN, decide to invest in that project that you were thinking of, decide to talk to that girl that you always like, you control your future and you could lead it to the happiest of your dreams or the worst of your nightmares.

I'll be in touch and thank you for reading me, today ways the day one of cleaning myself of PORN, I hope could reach the top.

Miguel calmet

 

Thanks for reading my post bro, just like I said, you could make yourself the future that you always wanted, you could be free of Porn and accomplish anything you ever want, you just have to aim your actions to the right path, today was my second day without PMO and just like you i'm going one day at a time, i know you can beat the addiction.

Good luck.

Miguel Calmet

 

watch this man, it explains you how the porn affects on your brain, you could also use this "Brain buddy" app it could help you get through those hards moments.

Cheers bro!!

 

One more day one my personal record, It is my third day clean of PMO, and i feel relaxed, no temptations at all probably because i've been busy the whole day, my goal is to reach one month clean and from then keep going and leaving behind this addiction.


Greetings!!

 

today was my day number four of cleaing myself of PMO, today was a bit tricky I felt tempted of watching porn, luckily I managed to control myself and spend the rest of the day doing stuff for my college, I will beat this addiction for sure.
Stay Strong Bros!!