well screwed up at 28 days out of my 30.

You know you can't look at pSubs, you can't look at porn and you can't edge. I honestly can't see a different way for this story to end that is not an orgasm and a reset. Edging is bad enough for your progress and when doing it, an orgasm is just a stroke away.

Slay the desire in the early steps, don't let it escalate. Everything happens quickly and before you know it, you get an orgasm.
Get used to stop the chain reaction early or ask for help to your APs.

 

That's the spirit and like you said this is the longest you've gone in 20 years. That's HUGE! Celebrate that and look at this relapse as a learning experience that quitting this addiction requires a lot of hard work. Definitely don't get upset though, it's hard to quit cold turkey. You'll get there when you get there don't feel like because others hit 90 on their first tries you have to do the same. It's about the journey not the finish line.

 

Congrats on getting to 28 days man!
You must have done something right to even get that far.
That further than I have ever ventured, 28 days is still a big success!

 

@RdrMGK69 I think u did well. Everyone fails the first time honestly. U may fail more. But think each time you become stronger! One day you will annihilate this addiction. Learn from your mistake. No more p-sub, no more edge!

 

Hurdle races aren't single obstacle courses, gotta keep moving if you want to hit the finish line, despite what it throws at you, fair or foul.

You've done very well, its easy to slip into the psub trap and harder crawl out of it, but 28 days free is good progress, given in comparison that it is a mere 48 hours left comparably to the time that you've endured. Least you are aware where the psubs are now and allow yourself some room to make prepations to block off access to said psubs so you can continue your hurdle race and progress to breaking your chains.

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Im on my own 17 day stint and i've collapsed too, i know how it feels