Is bottoming harmful for my reboot?

I posted this on reddit too, not much there s far. See end for TL;DR

Hi, I'm a 23 yo male. My PIED problems started not long ago, when a big crush of mine (who put me in the "friendzone" for a long time) became single and we started dating. Not wanting to jeopardise my chances with him, I stopped seeking casual sex with others (I'm almost always a top, had sex on average about 3 times a week). Since I still had urges but I didn't want to fuck around, I wanked. I wanked a lot. So much so when we had sex the second time I started going limp when I put a condom on.

I since went to all the doctors I could find but nothing's wrong with my hormones or circulation (I tried sildenafil the second and third time but I was still not good enough). I since read about PIED and thought "well, shit that's probably me", so I'm at day 7 of my "reboot", haven't had sex with my guy since I started (we're both really busy with school/work).

The last time we were together I bottomed for him (not very used to it, but it was nice as I have feelings for him), and talked about the whole thing and he's super supportive and understanding. My question is, since bottoming is a very different experience (your dick doesn't get stimulated, only your prostate, or you basically jerk off to cum while you're being fucked), is it detrimental for my "rewiring to a top" to bottom? Or will it just reinforce neural pathways that anticipate bottoming experience, which is very different from topping experience?! I'd like to know if anyone has any experience with this, as I'm worried about it (I like being with him in whatever way but both of us would like for me to fuck him real good like I used to).

QUICK EDIT: This is kind of an urgent matter for me, as besides this problem, I'm looking at what could be a very good relationship with someone I love. The problem is, if it comes at the price of me never being able to recover as far as top "duties" (pleasures..) because I get used to bottoming, I'm kind of conflicted if it's worth it (I know, it sounds inconsiderate, but topping is a part of my life).

TL;DR: If I jerk off during getting fucked in the ass, will it hurt my "rewiring" to topping (i.e. "regular" sex, for you straight guys)?!

Thanks for all the help and real talk you send my way,
-G

 

Thanks for the reply.
Do you mean to say that nofappers should completely eliminate sex from their lives? Isn't the point to only have sex and not masturbate? I'm new to all this.
Cheers

 

Thanks for taking the time anyway.

 

Why not?! Did you not read that I have PIED now? He's more bottom. Or are you suggesting that we not have sex UNTIL I get to top him? (which is part of my original question)

 

Yeah, thanks for figured as much. Thanks for the reply!

 

Ok so *IF* I will bottom for him next time I should resist finishing with my hands, that's a cool idea, not shure how easy it will be. lol
I'm going to talk it over with him next time we're alone. Thanks for the response!