HELP o feel like killing myself

http://antidoteforall.com/
just go to this link and do this few minute exersize, it will help you relax and get into your center.

 

You've had some great support on here, I hope you are in a stronger place. (I think you are, from reading through the thread).
I'm glad you've got past the point of killing yourself, really. That's horrible. But, so is something else you said, and nobody has pulled you up on it. I'm not the "NoFap Police" but I've got to say something.

If you really feel that you are going to rape someone, for gods sake get help. This is not a good place to be mentally. Talk to a professional, a doctor, a counsellor, anyone. But these are dark, dark thoughts. It's a symptom of how porn may have warped your brain that you are thinking like this. Stay away from porn, it's fucking your head up… but masturbation is better than rape. It's not even in the same ballpark, so relapse if you have to. It's one thing to not be able to control your urges when that impacts just you, and a completely different one when it could seriously harm another human being.

If you were exaggerating to get your point across, well, that's a pretty horrible thing to say, and again, I'd put it down to porn that you even thought this was acceptable to post – showing how porn has fucked with your head.

 

This is one of the hardest things any man can do. Relapsing at 3 days is alright, thats 3 full days you've gone without PMO. Not many men can do that. It's a process. You'll get better at doing it mark my words.

 

You can do it man

 

So glad for u

 

In relation to this I have often had times where my perv senses are just always on and im perving on every female i see, even if they are not attractive, old, young etc. Abstaining from porn (when i have done it) really helps me stop this. When this gets to me and im feeling bad about it i have to consciously realize i am doing it and let it go, i try to accept that it happened without judgement but remind myself that it is unhealthy because it makes being around women sometimes awkward, sometimes distressing. It also leads to wanting to fap at times if i see a really hot girl and start thinking of porn.
The best way i have reduced my perving is by interacting with women socially or at work and just treating them the way i treat males, with basic respect and denying urges to perv, even glancing.