I think I figured out an addiction I have that may be stronger than PMO...

Eating sweet foods. At least at the moment.

I was on a pretty good health streak most of the year until about September/October where I've been on a pretty strong sweet streak. It wasn't until the weeks leading up to Thanksgiving where was like, "ok, I reaally have to tone it down because I know when thanksgiving comes around i'm going to be eating a ton". But I couldn't tone it down. I kept eating any sweet thing that I had a chance to (smores pop tarts, cookies, cake, sweet tea from mcdonalds, sugar cookies from mcdonalds, ice cream).... My method was to try to just not go out of my way to get these things, but if they were there, there was absolutely no way I wouldn't pass up an opportunity to consume them.

Like seriously, the urge was so strong that I almost wouldn't think twice before just eating them. If they were there, or it was convenient to get them, I HAD to.

I've recently realized that this might be a legit stronger addiction than PMO. (At the moment). I fail with PMO by relapsing all the time. I'm constantly on and off with it, but at least with that, I'm on streaks regularly and not constantly in an indefinite state of relapse. There was no letting up with me sweet addiction. 1 or 2 days at best was my streak there, and even on many of the days where I think "wow, i've gone this whole day without sweets" or "yesterday was pretty clean for me!" something either comes up and I ruin it by getting the opportunity to eat a few cookies (and eating them), or I'll look back at a past day and realize that I did actually have some sweets that day.

The urge is so strong for sweets right now.... I recently had a strong reflection on myself when it came to PMO and my life in general. This particular streak i'm on, I feel stronger and more confident about it than I ever have been. I'm on 6 days right now, had some urges, but didn't act on them. The urges I've had on this streak haven't been much so far though. When the urge gets HUGE like it normally does any time within a few weeks of a streak, I always end up trying to justify a reason for me to PMO, and then doing it eventually. This particular streak hasn't given me such a challenge yet. But like I said, I feel stronger and more confident about cutting this out of my life than ever before, so i'm almost eager to get those BIG urges, because I feel like my streak hasn't really started until I really start facing that challenge.

My mom is baking cookies right now. The smell is going all throughout the house. The urge to eat them is very strong, but I know I don't HAVE to eat them. I was thinking to myself, if I can't handle this urge not to eat these cookies right now, how will I handle the urge not to fap when those urges start coming in strong? The smell of these cookies is basically like the rush I get when i'm urged to relapse. If I can control myself now, i'll have a lot more confidence in myself in the future in regards to nofap. So wish me luck against these evil cookies!

For context: I'm 19, been trying to do nofap since about a 16 or so months ago, longest streak has been about 36. Oh, and I know I talk about my sweet addiction a lot, but looking at me, you wouldn't think I have eating problems. I'm about 5'9, 140 lbs, and pretty fit (though I could be fitter)