I WANT TO FAP

Ugh. I have been going strong for so long now. But today I have received the third strike of just, bad news and bad things happening to me ever since early December. I'm doing everything I can and what's in my control seems to be going well. But everything that is not in my control that could go wrong, is going wrong in big ways. Car accident, budget cuts cancelled a stellar job I thought I had waiting for me for summer, I got robbed, etc.

I feel increasingly inadequate and uncertain that the great potential I always though I had will ever really materialize into what I liked to think it could when I was growing up. I literally might just become a loser. Fuck life.

Fortunately I am too tired to fap I think. So I will likely just sleep this off. But damn, I don't see a point to anything, including NoFap. If I'm a loser who has consistent bad luck, girls won't want me anyway so who gives a shit.

 

Hey guys, just an update... I DIDN'T FAP!!!! Seriously just went to sleep and woke up the next morning feeling a bit better. Although today I didn't get much done and I spent most of the time successfully fighting the urge to fixate on the negative shit I'm going through. It sucks but it is kind of a lesson in controlling my emotions right now. Bad luck after bad luck.