No Pain, No Gain

I never thought Arnold's words would apply in this situation but we learn new things every day! ;P XD

Hello everyone, my name is Christopher and I'm a new fapstronaut. I'm 26 years old, discovered porn at the young age of 12 when Internet was still quite slow compared to today lol (in 2001) and have been addicted ever since. For 14 years, believe it or not, I never cuddled with a girl, I never kissed a girl and finally, I never had sex with a girl (so yeah, I'm still a virgin ^^'). I had relationships before that though, between the age of 10 and 12 but nothing involving adult stuff, obviously and when porn came into my life, I got hooked. Through the years, I often tried to stop fapping to pixel girls because all my friends had girlfriends and I knew something was wrong with me otherwise I'd get girls too but every time I'd stop, I'd relapse in a matter of days. The longest I ever went without fapping was 13 days and that's because I was on a vacation in Europe and when I came back, the first thing I did was relapsing. I felt like a total junkie without my dose and it was very not fun to live. I spent much of last week educating myself on pmo, porn addiction, how it worked, what to do to stop, because I made it my new year resolution to quit porn, in 2016 and I really want to change. It appears obvious to me that I became the man I am today because of porn and in order to live my life to the fullest, I must change. I had become so isolated, I couldn't talk to girls, all I thought about when I'd see one was facials, anal, how I'd like to see her orgasm over and over again and this is so fu**** up because deep down, inside my heart, I'm a very nice guy and I would never consider girls as mere sex objects, that's not me but I realise now it's porn that make me thinks this way. My attention deficit disorder, my shyness, my akwardness, all I mentionned earlier, pornography is to blame for all of it but it's over.

As of today (I know we're sunday but let's pretend we're still saturday night), I quit porn and went NoFap, for 2 days. Already, I can feel changes inside of me. I'm more swift mentally, I'm less slow at everything I do. I have less trouble focusing on things and my ADD seems to be gone, along with that brain fog I used to feel sporadically. At gym tonight, I had unbelievable strenght and for the first time in years, I looked at a girl in the eyes with confidence. And no mere girl, one that is a bodybuilder, has a body to make men drool and is extremely attractive. She doesn't look like a man, rather like an amazon lol. She has a very develloped lower body, big tights, can leg press 450 pounds (this is incredible, strong girls turns me on real bad, for some reason XD For the record, I only leg press 360 pounds so she BEATS ME! It's tough for the ego... lol) and I used to be ashamed in her presence because ...I was intimidated, by A GIRL! But no more, I looked at her with pride, smiled and didn't think of facials!! O.O My lips shake just to imagine it but I'm attracted to her and it makes me teary because, when I think about her, I don't think about sex, I think about love and this hasn't happened in a long time, which makes me terribly happy. I have better memory too, along with more energy, really, I feel great after those 2 days of abstinence. No negativity, just positivity!

Of course, I read all about the first week, the flatline and probably loss of libido but it doesn't scare me because I know it's only temporary and I will be transformed for the rest of my life. I'm 26 and leaving me until the venerable age of 30 to fully recover so I'm prepared for 3 years and a half of war!! I'm pumped up and I will not fail!! I will catch up on those 14 years and have tons of sex but ...when only the time will be right. I'll start by doing NoFap for 90 days then I'll see. From what I read, I got addicted to girls on a screen since a young age and for almost 15 years so this might take me 1-3 years to fully recover but like the great Reginald Fils-Aime would say, ''My Body is Ready!''. XD

It will be a pleasure to share with you all, much reports about my inner war and support you in our common goals that is, to stop pmo! We can do this!!

To 90 days of pure genuine pleasure and maybe many more, who knows...

 

Thanks Septimus, of course, as the inspirational man in my avatar would say ...I'll be back! XD

I finally found out how to add a pmotracker! 4.4% of my trip through space complete, reaching mars in 86 days!

 

Hello @param, all the best as well. Yeah, last night I went on google and wrote ''Ronda Rousey'' because I heard she did a body pain photoshoot for Swimsuits Illustrated and almost cliqued on pictures but then closed the page and realised I nearly relapsed without noticing it! :S My dopamine-addicted circuits tried to trick me by making me look at soft pictures first then things would probably have gone all the way to pmo but it didn't, I found the strenght to resist!! I'm so proud of me and it motivates me to keep up the fight. First 3 days were easy but the real fight just started last night. I'm starting to feel more and more agitated because my brain wants it's dose lol but, at the same time, I'm extremely determined and I will do all I humanly can to not reset/relapse! I wish us all the luck of the world my friend, may we be victorious in our war against porn addiction!