How I became a porn addict

Thanks for sharing brother. We are always happy to hear from you. I believe in you. Stay strong! Win!

 

"Oh no, not another thread by Golgo 13..."

I discovered masturbation about the same age as you - I was 13 and I'd heard so much about "wanking" but I thought it meant just playing with yourself. One day at school I see this guy making a "wanking" gesture with his hand. I thought, "Oh, so that's how you do it." When I got home I tried it out and pretty soon my thoughts were tending towards a pretty girl from school. Finally I cum and from then on I'm hooked, doing it every day for about 5 years (just MO) and then PMO/MO for the next few years until about age 24. I got on to drugs like clonazepam, alprazolam and methadone which made me impotent. They were a substitute for porn for me, and I felt bad about looking at porn.

Interestingly, I discovered a book called "Practice of Brahmacharya" (Sanskrit for celibacy) at age ~19 and I put this into practice at age 24 (year 2009)... it was like my own NoFap program... before NoFap was even around. After some success with this Brahmacharya I went back to PMOing, to my eternal regret.

Fast forward six years and I've PMOed/MOed on and off since then, and also had sex. I became impotent from MO last year and this year has been one of my most successful streaks. I'm aiming for thirty days and then three months. Wish me luck!

Don't let those wet dreams bother you, they will go eventually if you are a committed celibate. Stay strong brother, you're doing really well and I wish you all the best.