Newbie, trying to climb out of the hole, need support

Hey everyone,

I'm 22, Male, Canadian, new graduate with too much spare time, a porn addict and I'm starting to slip into something far worse. I discovered porn and masturbation at 11, and the longest I've gone since then without jerking off has been 3 weeks. I've watched this community from afar for a long time, and I feel like this community is the best place to turn to.

I've long been a Catholic, and the struggle with lust has been my biggest vice in striving towards living out my faith. I've felt like such a hypocrite, as a member and leader of a youth community, in preaching chastity while watching porn multiple times a day.

Things took a turn for the worst recently, and this is why I've decided to join this community before it spirals out of control. I've recently discovered the ease in soliciting sex, and besides the money that I've been throwing away, I've felt profound guilt, sadness, anger and shame from what I've been doing.

So this is the start of a new journey - 30 Days of Hard Mode. I've posted in the accountability partner forum and I'm also starting a reboot log. This is really the first time I've reached out and tried to combat this with the support of others, and I hope this community can help me do that.

 

@the_grindel, thanks a lot for the warm welcome! It's much appreciated. I'll def hit you up for any questions, but right now, I'm just doing my research and getting a game plan in place to fight the inevitable urges and withdrawal.