READ THIS! I'm curious of your opinion about my story (HOCD,PIED)

If you've done enough research on HOCD or OCD in general, then you will know that to beat it you will have to accept the thoughts and feelings without resistance. It's difficult at first, but once you start doing it for a while you get more clarity and the boundary between your real self and your anxiety is black and white.

You aren't gay man. Sit back, relax, and let the thoughts flow through your mind. They are just thoughts. The mind is weird and likes to play mean tricks on us. In your heart you know you aren't gay, therefore you aren't. Starve yourself of MO/ PMO/ fantasies for a long time and you will notice positive results.

 

I would recommend you read this...

http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.ph...bisexual-ssa-dilemma.41097/page-2#post-303692

 

These sound like the best advice I can give, especially @Nuflis post. Fixating on something just strengthens it in you and prevents you from finding out your true beliefs.

Over and over I hear you saying "This is what I want the answer to be! How can I be sure of it?" And the answer is - you can't. If you decide on your answer before gathering all of the data at best you'll come to the right conclusion by accident - and then the next thing you try to build off of that won't have a proper, strong foundation to support other ideas. You might be gay, bi, straight, on a continuum, straight with SSA, whatever - it doesn't matter right now. All that matters right now is resetting back to normal so you can find out who you truly are.

Also, in my opinion, obsessing over this topic probably isn't helping your brain reset. Thinking about fantasizing is one step away from fantasizing and can carry a lot of the same power. Right now you're collecting data, you're not coming to any conclusions about it. Learning about problems before proposing solutions leads to better solutions and less wasted energy on "solutions" that don't actually address the problem!

Stop worrying about being attracted to a gender or not and get yourself out of the addictive spiral. And if HOCD is spiking up, remind yourself that you're a scientist gathering data about yourself so that you can answer the question that the HOCD is asking.

 

Ok the only reason I made this account was to reply to you because you remind me of me the most... Growing up a teen I always just wanted to kiss a girl, have eachothers back, shes my partner in crime, walk hand and hand.... Id always go out and make out with hot girls that it... Girls would wanna have sex but I could never get hard, Id watch sick porn shit everyday, was depressed. I even went as far as kissing a transgendered person one night Lul! Anyways..... I found my first real girlfriend and couldnt get hard... plus i was taking antidepressant pills i WAS not prescribed and that messed my mind even more making me do things I normally wouldnt, I felt so like whatever, could never get turned on... I once even got with the hottest girl that all my friends wanted to be with who even models and I just wanted her to go home so I can watch porn LOL!!! Kinda haunts me still but not really... Anyways I just turned 21. Im eating food that boosts my testosterone naturally, doing nofap... Not eating pasta and dairy and any food that lowers testosterone naturally, im taking a daily vitamin that consists of ZINC, COPPER, VITAMIN D3! And taking L argenine pills that increases blood flow to penis. My ED is basically cured. Also I once did these pills and I didnt fap for 2 weeks and I fucked the shit out of a hot older girl and my Penis was hard as a ROCK FOR ONCE before even taking my shorts off she was like DAMN how you gonna put that in me. Fuaaark feels good bruh, U gotta try all this. It changes you.. Also you gotta lift, play basketball. IT MAKES YOU WANT TO BE A FUCKING AESTHETIC STUD. Ok anyways thats it.