15 days Hardmode but almost committed a rape. Plz help me

Yes..
Sperm will still be release in your testes.
Since you avoid ejaculating, sperm will go to the bladder to look for an alternative pathway.
It will not return to your testes..


Also, I've seen an article before...
You might as well break your penis.

 

Here's the thing. Yeah, you felt like raping her. You didn't. Your brain said go one way, you decided to go another. As you keep deciding to do the right thing as opposed to the thing your habits want you to do, it will get easier as you start to form new habits to replace the bad ones

 

You should go talk to someone if you approached her thinking about raping her. Before you get yourself in trouble or hurt someone .

 

seriously you could of hurt her and scarred her for life
and for 1 minute of pleasure?

well done on saying no tho
theres not much lower than a rapist so be careful

 

Remember its only a thought

 

You might have bigger issues than porn addiction if you almost went through with raping someone.

 

I think porn videos that he watched made him to think in this way. There's no way a person would've thought to make a bad move if he's good inside unless the body responds without letting the brain take control. Yup that's very sad to go to that level. I thank God I still have that control over myself when my brain shutsoff.

@OP as for you I suggest to meditate more and more like crazy to the point you don't get out of your house without realising the danger of your thoughts. You need from someone in your family if possible to help you as you really need it. Hurting yourself is not the same as hurting someone else in the equation. Nofap was never about fixing dark thoughts but rather taking control over the urge of fapping and nor raping. So please take this matter seriously.

 

If you are getting the urge to rape girls and going as far as walking up to them and scaring them, you should see it as an alarm call to get help...today.

Try to sex addiction meetings, get therapy.

This tendency needs to be nipped in the bud now because your mind will quickly develop a taste for it. A scary prospect.

It sounds like the addiction is already quite strong in you, if you are actually acting on the impulses, so get help while you still can.

 

I also think you should strongly consider getting some face-to-face counseling. It's great you are here but we can only do so much as random guys on the Internet. If you are a student there are probably free or low-cost counseling services available through student health. If that's not an option, look somewhere else even if you have to pay for it.

I understand your urges are very powerful but if you go any further down that path you will create an immense amount of suffering for yourself and someone else. Any expense of time or money you have to put in now to get some help will be more than worth it in the long run. Better to spend it now to get healthy then spend it in a jail cell because you couldn't control yourself.

You obviously don't take your actions lightly and that's good. It sounds like you have a pretty serious problem so you should get some serious help. Good luck and keep us updated.
Nom

 

Awesome, I think that's a smart move. I know things seem dark now but you are taking the right steps and seem to have a good attitude for working toward recovery. Get the help you need and get through this. Let us know how it goes.
Nom

 

@ByeForever!! Don't sweat it. I have had bad thoughts too, everyone did. The thing is if you did it.
Who gives a shit, its a thought its nothing.

From my view, your really wanting to have sex, and your body is going nuts, you see the woman lol.. Its normal. Hmm all you did walk up to her, and wanted to talk with her. U know.. its okay to be agressive with women, just aslong as you arent forcing them, you show them yourself and you want a woman. No problem. Next time, remove your own fear in your mind. Go talk and be yourself, you will see. Right now its like a bull, insane, and probably overpowering. Give it time, and when u can control the fire it will be like this:Fire can be destructive, destroying an house, burning it down, or burning down a forest. On the other hand, fire can be so useful, It can light a room when a candle is lit, for all to see.

Cheers =)

 

There was a guy on the news that killed his own kid by locking him in a hot car just to have sex with a woman.

I never even thought of rapeing a woman.