New to NoFap: 25 Year Old Male Who's Struggled

Hello, I'm new to NoFap and am trying NoFap to help gain control of my life by trying to abstain from porn and masturbation. I've been a daily fapper since I was in my early teens and have never really taken a break, usually mastubating more than once a day. I'm currently trying NoFap, on my second day and have a very strong urge to masturbate, I have this churning in my loins so to speak and it's hard to ignore.

The reason I started NoFap is because I saw it mentioned and it oddly spoke to me as its what I should do. But the bigger reason is for a few years now I've been dealing with some depression, heavy lethargy, and just a general sense of not caring. I'm currently in school and have no motivation for it, I've also been dealing with other issues such as realizing I have a mild/moderate milk allergy so I had to cut all dairy out of my system otherwise I get anything from gastrointestinal discomfort to crippling pain depending on the amount of dairy I consume. I've found I've used masturbation as a crutch to fall back on when feeling emotions and feelings I can't properly handle, similar to problems I have with certain foods such as refined sugars and caffeine.

I'm trying to get control of my life, gain better focus, truly realize what I want to do with my life, etc. I am hoping to get in better shape and I feel the extra energy from abstaining from porn and masturbation will help me achieve it as well as having more focus on my future. NoFap is about self-improvement and self-control for me and hopefully in time I can also meet that special girl, best friend, and partner for me in time and settle down.

 

Thank you for the warm welcome. I have the feeling this is going to be one of if not the hardest things I've had to do. Already experiencing more energy, I get the feeling I may have some trouble sleeping as this goes on. I had a strong swelling of aggression this morning where I had to exercise to quell it. I have a feeling channeling the energy in the right things will be difficult at first, I'm going to start with trying to exercise every day.

 

Thank you for the warm welcome. I really need to get my life in order, it's just I never realized it was PMO that was one of the main culprits. It helps explains my change in behavior once I hit my teenage years, becoming much more passive and introverted eventually developing some social anxiety which led to very few friends. It's going to be hard and I am aware I'm going to relapse a few times, but I just have to keep trying and don't get discouraged, it's a process and journey and being too harsh on myself about it won't work, I have to stay positive about this. Honestly I feel like this has slowed down and halted my progress in life and NoFap is the way to get the wheel turning again. I'm hoping to have confidence in myself and actually like myself and feel good about myself as a person. I have good feelings about this community so far, very positive, which helps one feel more comfortable with going through with this.