Please Join me!!!!!

If you feel the need or have an urge take a piss or perhaps put your balls on ice. Lol! I thinks it's important to keep a sense of humor about life! Especially the shitty parts like this. : )

 

We are all morning towards wholeness and health. I truly believe it. It takes some of us longer.

 

So in the meantime be patient and good to yourselves!

 

I'm very much refocused and re-committed. Have a great weekend all ! Be good to yourselves! : )

 

Have a victorious weekend men. Stay committed to the challenge. Doesn't matter if you are on day 20 or you relapsed last night, recommit and strengthen your resolve. I know that I would have relapsed if it was not for this website and this challenge. I have wanted to cave under the intense pressure of my daily life, but I need to complete this. I need to let myself know that I can win the big game. This victory will spill over into every area of my life. Lets do this together. We all need this.

WE ARE STRONG TOGETHER

 

Heya, 6 days in.. Initially going for 90 days as the goal but breaking it down into 10% manageable chunks in my mind... May or may not help. It easier to deal with.
Good luck.

 

I just do 24 hours a day or one moment to the next. With pmo your fine one moment and all stressed and don't care. So is a good idea to take it slow. Plus no point in getting a big ego over NoFap.

 

Hey Guys,

Im on Day 35 today. Had a great hiking and picnic day with group of friends and now tired, I will read for sometime and then sleep.

Your determination all to quit PMO inspires me and keep me focused and responsible.

Guys now we are planting the seeds and soon once we get married we will harvest the corps and enjoy the REAL sexual healthy life.

Keep going guys. WE are Stronger together.

 

Day 20 liked the heat on the ground .Everybody is awesomely committed to complete the mission I am too. But the point is I want to kick this thing out of my perfect life . If I would be given the choice that I would purged of this vice forever but I would not be able to have a nice girl or any girl in my life and I would be subjected in this world to Rot forever I will accept the offer immediately because the pain and suffering it has caused me the loss the pain it's alot and it's immense . The cost it's unpayable . And I will sell anything to defeat this shit .I don't need anything my life is perfect .I don't want to feel the difference between a male and a female.I don't want to love any girl in this world . Maybe I am towards the right path now .Maybe my life is short not enough to enjoy the joys of married life . I will live alone in this world .With my mum and sis.I hate the feelings .I want to feel neutral . Live a constant and linear life . Maybe I will die alone in this world . I am happy I don't want anything else . I just want to stay away from destroying myself because it's the worst of worstest thing you encounter in your singleton life . I have been drowned for 3 years in the ocean of darkness . But my journey is near to the end . I can see the surface . I can see the land . Beginning of a new life.
Take care and have an incredible weekend.

 

Side feelings : I want to be the person that a nice and extremely beautiful girl prettier than an angel standing in front if me crying for me to marry her ,instead of getting my heart melted with her innonce and beautiness I would rather slap her face and tell her to step aside . A very hot and tall girl pleasing me I would rather kick her in the belly and cut her in two halves and through her peices to vultures to eat . I destroyed my self for the past years who's responsible this world or me maybe this world . And only two choices that I have left . Kill myself or make this world suffer . It's enough I have destroyed myself more than enough . Now it's time for my vengeance to make this world suffer.
Pardon me if I am too childish but I am Truce and truth needs to be praised

 

Hey Superman,

I'm confused about your "side feelings". Let me say what I'm hearing and you tell me if I'm right or wrong? It sounds like you want to find a beautiful woman to marry. And by "beautiful woman" you mean one pure of heart an "angel". At the same time it sounds like you found or fantasize about a tall, physically beautiful woman and she made you feel less than who you really are. I'm guessing that's pmo? Your searching for someone or something to blame. In the frantic mess of all these emotions you've come up with two feelings/actions homicidal and suicidal.

Though it sounds like you have replaced these two feeling/action (homicidal and suicidal) with vengeances on the world as a whole? Knowing vengeances is still causing harm to others but not as much harm as suicide or homicide. Then it seems you are asking to be "pardon" (forgiven) for being immature. And try to erase the immature feelings by stating, "I am Truce" (found peace between two enemies), which I'm guessing is the feelings of homicide and suicide. And you are praising the truth that you have found for coming to peace with those two demands (homicide and suicide)?

Let me know if that's right or wrong. Maybe I'm in the middle of a conversation and way off base. Anyway, Take it easy.

CaveMan

 

My God! I can relate to the deep sense of suffering. This pmo has been at times so fucking consuming I don't who the fuck I am any more. I to have wanted to lash out at the cruelty of the world, to be one of the 4 Horseman of The Apocalypse riding out spreading death and mayhem and consumed with a blinding rage. Ultimately though anger/rage justs hurts yourself. So much is beyond us. The sick porn business, society, our culture, abuse or neglect of our parents....etc....etc... all of us probably have been fucked over to a degree. It's up to us though to assume responsibility for ourselves and not create more suffering upon what has happened already. I feel you brother and can relate to your feelings as well as all who have suffered here. We can all defeat this together.

 

@Superman64 .....take it easy bro. This to shall pass. Stopping the pmo has brought up much anger and sadness for me as well. I know once I go thru this i'll b the better person. It's definitely not easy though.

 

But well worth it.......hang in there.

 

I guess I'm mellowing out over the years. I use to feel a lot of remorse and sadness (depression). Still do at times. Pmo hurts us at the core of our "being" at times. Lashing out and blaming other people, places, or things can help prevent depression but on the other side of depression is rage. So it goes back and forth. Like a dog chasing his tail. Our emotion don't lie to us. We feel what we feel. A lot of it is to no fault of our own. We do however have to learn how to deal with those emotion in fear and trembling.

 

It is Day 36

I believe puting anger and envy in our hearts towards who hurt us will only cause us pain and suffering in the long term.

Let's forgive others and ourself for all the past and lets focus on the NOW, now we are better, we are stronger, we are in control and our enemy is only PMO so lets fight it and keep counting the Days further till the infinite.

 

Aaargh! Slipped on my 16th day, I have had to reset my PMO counter. But I am not giving up. I am going to gladly start over again because I am not going back to the way I was before I stopped PMOing. I do have a few notes that I would like to share about my experience during the 16 days.

1. Stay away from social media. I thought if I could check a few pictures or two, it would do no harm. I found myself staring at provocative pictures(Not quite porn but just girls in provocative sexy poses).
2. Do a hobby, code, paint, whichever hobby you are interested in. In my case, I would code PHP and it would help keep my head distracted.
3. Do some physical exercise. It helps channel the extra energy. Plus you keep fit(no harm in that)
4. Have a secondary counter. In my case I use an android app called Rewire. It keeps me motivated to see my progress wherever I go(internet access is a problem in my country, Rewire serves as an offline counter to me).
5. There is no invisible man trying to convince you to PMO, it's all in the head. Soldier on

Am not giving up. We can do this guys!!

 

For me the pmo can and has covered up things like: sadness, anger, rage e

 

You are well on your way. You learned some things and you can use it to move forward and not make the same mistake again. Progress not perfection.

 

No bro! You sort of got to my point but not completely. I was and not fantasizing . It was my rage the anger for the pain and the suffering pmo had caused to me. I cannot recover for what I had lost for what I destroyed . I can only make my future bright and I will . I can only recover myself from the point where I am standing right now till the end of my life . But the time which passed away my past i can do nothing of it . Its not just enough to recover myself for the destruction the pmo and all the things related to it like girls in social media and all their forms films , advertisements exposing themselves etc has caused to me . The cost of the loss is unpayable . So in addition to recovery i also want to give up my male thing and live the entire life neutrally . A life that a warrior spends in the desert fighting his greatest fears . No matter how much beautiful the life can become i don't want it anymore . I hate all sort of feelings that i feel as male. Even when i see a nice beautiful one it disturbs my life maybe a little bit but still. Man i don't want even the clean things . I don't want any dreams of my dream partner anymore . Its enouuugh . I am neutral . I don't have any feelings . I am not male anymore . Just a human being with no feelings .