240 Days PMO Free

Today my counter clicks over to 240 days Masturbation Free. I've now gone 256 Days without watching Porn too.

It would be a lie to say I don't think about M, how it use to feel, letting that rationalisation take over. It never gets that far.

I can freely talk about PMO with my current partner which to me means a lot really. I can talk to some friends too. My AP who i check in with daily has become a firm friend through messaging.

I know porn is out there still, waiting to be used. I'm no longer exposed too much to the sexualised society we live in due to streamlining my TV experience and the use of Internet Ad-Blockers. I don't miss the shit that is spewed out on a hourly basis to draw me in and take over my senses. I'm very careful what i expose my mind to.

How do i feel. I feel peaceful for the most part. I'm no longer an angry tunnel visioned freak looking for his next porny fix from whatever source i could find at the time. It doe just not interest me at all.

There is more to life that "sex" What i mean by that is fake sex. You know... porn, it isn't real it is a moving image on a screen conducted for the most part by actors. The still image is the same. It's an image of reality, sometimes so warped by photoshop it bears no resemblance to the original source.

I pride myself in only getting genuinely aroused in the presence of my partner. I did have thoughts of PIED and ED at the beginning of the relationship and I've found that this is now mainly a confidence and focusing issue with me. If I can't perform it's because my mind has drifted not because of my PMO Past.

To the doubters and do-gooders in the Porn industry, mainstream medical world and any other section of society that promotes fakeness... FUCK YOU. I have my life back after 32 years of PMO. I'm out front.

 

@BrownTownn Yes I reduced social media quite a lot. removed instagram totally, flickr and Tumblr. Tumblr was the most triggering. I also logged out on devices Facebook for three months. I'm back in now but much more under control. I also reduced my TV and movie consumption. I kept the devices out of my bedroom, notifications on silent for a while.

If you want to change you are going to have to CHANGE how you live. there is no other way. Part of the problem is your current lifestyle as it allows the PMO to trigger you, boredom etc. Hope that helps.

 

Yes it feels so different now. Im not constantly looking for triggers, hardly ever think about porn at all now. And i dont linger on stuff i see beyond my control too. I feel at peace.

 

Congratulations and thank you for shariing. You are right that one needs to limit social media where it can bring triggers.

 

@The 1000 Water Fists It made a big difference not being online like i used to. I had to break the cycle of sex chatting on fb first and foremost. Now i am back online on social media but my habits have totally changed. And i no longer care about "missing" newsfeed items and posts. 95% of it all on social media is mind clutter whether it is advertising, friends washing dirty laindry in public, moaning friends and the good old subs we all are trying to avoid. Real life is better and social media complements it. It isnt real life itself.

 

Hi britaxe. I can relate as I used to do quite a bit of sex chatting on facebook and like you I avoided social media for awhile. That used to be a big weakness for me but for me I not into sex chatting anymore. I am back online yet I never use it to air my dirty laundry there anymore and barely make any status updates there anymore to.

 

That @christian0101 is progress brother

 

@britaxe Congratulations for being porn free for over a year!

We live in a shitty world, in a world where is everything about sex and nudity. You can't even turn on tv without seeing some women's wear tiny cloths or no cloths at all. It is in music, movies, sports... it is even on the billboards.
That is the scary part, some kind of porn is always available to us and we can always relapse.
I hope things will change in the future and that people will be more aware of the damage caused by porn.