This is stupid

Day 9
I have mixed feelings. The girl I had crush on visited my house before few days. It was a brief visit and she wanted her book,she took it and went home. I gave her water and some snacks, only strange thing was I was alone in the house. But nothing happened to mention, I felt awkward after she left. I thought about it few days and then I thought it was normal visit which was unintentional and so nothing to worry about. But yesterday she messaged me that her boyfriend who is also friend of mine is blaming her for this action(visiting my home) and calling her characterless and cheap. He thinks she and I fuck each other behind his back(not literally).
I did not know how to react, she insisted that I should not contact her from now as it is ruining her image. I had no clue how this happened and I am feeling little bit sad about all this. I do want relationship but not like this. This blame game is so cheap I can not think about it. Three of us were friends since college days and now that moron thinks I am after his girlfriend. She visited my house after so many years, I am a virgin so no question of physical intimacy between that girl and me. This is all stupid, so stupid. I do not know how to handle these emotions.......of course I stopped talking to both of them and thinking about leaving the circle( they will leave me anyway after this)
At the age of 27 what the hell is going on?

 

Yes we all were very close and this has ruined it. Truth is sometime a single person is always blamed liked this in a group which have couples. I wont contact her or him either, let us see what happen when this boiling water settles down may be then I will know the truth.Thanks for replying, NoFap forum always guides me when I needed it most.

 

I used to like this girl when I was in college, because she was the first to take interest in me. Then at that time I was going through a lot in my life so I did not responded the way I supposed to be. My friend saw the opportunity and proposed her she said no. Then after college I was busy in management studies and my friend was busy in pursuing her. She still used to call me a lot. I thought I will become financially stable and then ask her to marry me as she said no to that guy, she was available. But due to lack of time the relation slipped away from my hand like grains of sand. She got tired of my busy days and said yes to him. I accepted my fault that I was never there for her and my friend was there so what she did is just. I stopped hanging with them. I joined a pharma company when I was 22 but when she went away from me, I became a lazy person and did jobs here and there. I know she never told me quit jobs but this all scenario took toll on my heart, I really lost motivation to go on. I started hanging with them from last year which resulted in this. I do not have an angle as I thought this was fate. I am naive when it comes to relationship and I am living in a very dark place of life now.

 

I am preparing for civil service exam, for that purpose I left my back office job. I do crack level 1 and level 2 of those exams but did not have civil service job yet as I failed to cross level 3 exam.Few exams I was behind the qualifying marks by 1,2 or 3 marks. My daily schedule is a mess right now. I want to sleep early and rise early to get fit( I am overweight too). But my family have very unhealthy time schedule as my father is retired and everything goes around his time from food to sleep. I live in a small house which is one room and kitchen so I have to be awake by 1.30 am or more as everyone else is okay with that time. I even thought about leaving home as I feel trapped in this schedule but I can not because of lack of job currently.I was never plus side of weighing machines few years before but I started to fail in many fields including professional and personal.I eat a lot in stress and that made me 98 kilograms now. I also suffering from skin disease for which I am taking homeopathic medicine but there is very less improvement in that too. So health is also a concern and after all this I have to go through this non sense stuff like I mentioned in this post. I fight with urges on daily basis. NoFap is ray of hope, a hope when all struggle will fade and stability comes..
this kind of dark place I was talking about...

 

Thank you hej da and traveller22 . I will change my diet from today only. I almost forgot about these recovery measures from few months. Thank you for reminding me and yes I will reduce the sugar intake too.

 

I have not contacted any of them and I will avoid contact if they will call me or something. That is sure. suddenly I am realizing there is much to do with life. Years of life should be utilized to build something good. I feel like I am out of their trap but it is too early to say that.Thank you Machin for replying.