Block it

I can't recommend K9 blocker enough. I'm having one of those days and would definitely be fapping right now if I had access. It's funny my brain started making its own porn again this afternoon. Even though it's been almost a month since I've seen porn. My relapse was a pretty girl on a YouTube video. Driven over The edge by watching an LPGA golfer in very tight shorts all afternoon last Sunday. I don't want to give up the wonderful feelings I'm having about everything else. My relationship with my fiance is so much better I mean it was always good but now I feel like I'm really connected to it. And just I feel more open with people I'm already quite gregarious, but I feel like I can be myself I'm joking around more. My keyboard playing keeps getting better and I'm enjoying it more and more. My golf swing is better. And I'm not nervous when I talk to people. I'm still struggling with anger issues, but that's a dopamine addiction too, as is looking at the screen. We are dopamine Addicts gentlemen, and we have to quit dopamine that means we have to quit screen time on social media that means we have to quit anger as well. The reason we get so angry when we stop PMO is that our body needs dopamine and will get it through rage instead of porn if it has to. At the suggestion of my priest I have adopted St. Joseph as my intercessor and he is a very powerful protector for chastity. I can't recommend saying the St. Joseph novena prayer enough. Peace and fight on brothers and sisters. Fight on.

 

and of course I fall pray to another youtube video. curse you Red Baron!