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Sick of this Sh**

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by RetroMike, Apr 27, 2016.

  1. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    Today is Day 1 for me AGAIN! After many good short streaks (7days - 18days) I just can't seem to stop this PMO stuff! Right now I'm not working so I stay home majority of the week with my son while my wife is working. Sometimes I have my Mother in law watch my son in the mornings so I can have some time to myself to go the gym or catch up on homework for college. But majority of my time I'm just sitting around the house and just feel stagnant with my life and I want to change! Many times I told myself that I want to change, and I have but its HARD for me to stay disciplined and committed to change (Working out, doing my favorite hobby, reading, etc.) I've been doing PMO since I was 11 yrs old (now I'm 25) and thats all I think about is PMO. When I was on my PMO free streaks I felt like a new man! Energy through the roof, mental clarity, and all the other amazing "superpowers" but then just when the streak is getting good I always have a relapse due to some stupid trigger and I'm back to square freakin one. Right now I feel irritated, having brain fog, low energy/tired and cant freakin focus. I just want to find a way to just stay disciplined, committed, and productive during my PMO streaks and AWAY FROM PSUB's (That's how my relapsed started). I know this is probably a topic that comes up alot but I would love some insight on how to stay disciplined, committed, and productive during the PMO streak and how to handle the sexual energy and urges.
     
  2. Well congrats on your recent success, even if today or yesterday was a letdown. I believe in you! Remember how you feel right now, and in every moment, try to turn that into something of an inspiration.
    When I was reading your message I visioned young man who was enjoying clarity and then I was hearing about a young man who breaks his mirror and also enjoy it the process just like I do, unconsciously.
    Maybe an insight I could offer...maybe I buy a punching bag? Well you've had more success recently than I have, so maybe I could ask for your advice. I also have lot of down time and am 24 years old. Cheers!
     
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  3. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    Thank you for your response and for the poem. I truly do believe that failure is better than quitting because with failure you learn from it and you keep on fighting the good fight. And i definitely need to invest into a punching bag haha because when the urges come or if I feel the need to M to P I can transmute my sexual energy towards something productive.
     
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  4. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    Your vision of the young man is totally me! haha and a punching bag seems like the go to investment. thank you for you insight and also if you ever need advice I'm here to help as well as the thousands of awesome fapstronauts here.
     
  5. Awakening123

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    Understand that PMO is an addiction. Motivation and will power alone may not be enough to tackle it. PMO is a mental disease and it should be dealt with patenice and consistency. You have to make plans everyday on what you gonna be doing and what should be done when the urges/withdrawals strike.Be consistent with these goals. Download a blocker if you don't have one yet. It can be a long, tough and brutal journey but with dedication it is possible.
     
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  6. oreogirl

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    So much self loathing wrapped up in this addiction, maybe all addictions but this one seems to really carry a heavy weight of self despair. My husband had urges this morning, first time since he started his reboot, and he is really scared. He said to me I cannot go back there, PMO is killing me, what the hell am I going to do? It is heartbreaking really. He reaizes he needs more strategies in place, more support, he has been feeling so good, on cloud 9, better and stronger then he has in years, and it made him kind of think his story would be different - I guess cuz he wants freedom from it so badly.
    His heart wants it but his brain has been marinated in PMO for so long and it needs to heal. At the end of the day, it is an addiction, no more no less, and people do achieve abstinence, and the arduous journey is worth it.
    A life without the horror of PMO is a life worth fighting for. I love the punching bag idea, strengthen your body, stand ready to fight.
    Hope you find some peace today.
     
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  7. oreogirl

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    Thanks for sharing that poem, it helps!
     
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  8. Buzz Lightyear

    Buzz Lightyear Fapstronaut

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    Sure, strengthen your body, but more importantly strengthen your mind. Battling this addiction is all about reclaiming your psyche. Find pursuits in which you can take active pleasure such as quality music, good reading, appreciation of nature and art, and conversation. You'll build a resilience, and you'll one day be astounded that you could have stooped so low.
     
  9. Buzz Lightyear

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    Cheers for that. Yes, it helps to rationalize our progress... lest we start rationalizing our failures. You observe the phenomena and make a story out of it... a little like what the detached scientist does only with the microcosm of yourself. Parabolas and paradoxes..... we become better acquainted with our passions by detaching ourselves from them.
     
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  10. JTT

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    I am sick of this shit too bro.
     
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  11. diamondboi

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    Mon, u got yourself some nice pussy, go attend to that. Leave your dink alone, stop exerting energy on a wank and satisfy your wife.


    Your in a good position! got a lot going for yourself.... partners are the best for recovering


    Get off the computer, and give her a nice licking
     
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  12. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    Lets keep on fight the good fight!
     
  13. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    It is not as easy as it sounds brother haha.
     
  14. norSylvester

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    Ever tried yoga? Its difficult and easy at the same time. And it will leave you very tired and maybe you wont be able to jack off because ur 2 tired :) bring your wife too into some nice breathingexercise
     
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  15. RetroMike

    RetroMike Fapstronaut

    Never tried Yoga but I have heard great benefits from it. I will look into that more. Thank you for your insight.
     

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