Be aware and be very careful when flatline ends.

I experienced the dreaded flatline the moment I started going monk mode. This was some 41 days ago, March 21st 2016. This was quite scary as I thought I had a low testosterone problem. But no it is a part of abstaining from PMO and eliminating porn from my life. Looking back these past 41 days were quite peaceful. Things just slide right off and doesn't even register. It was an absolute easy going flow mentally and physically. Yes there were some very frustrating moments where things were not going to plan below the waist. LOL. I mean I get the morning woody but that was as exciting it was going to get. During this time randomly I expose myself to a few nude pics and even a few full fledge clips. Yet nothing registered and I just go about my merry way not giving a damn about it.

Yet this flatline all came crashing down to an abrupt end! LOL. Holy shit talk about an emotional ton of bricks. Well I didn't relapse but there were a few moments that came very close. Damn I held on and it was somewhat of a struggle.

Yesterday I downloaded a Penthouse mag and flipped through a few pages to see if my flatline continues. Suddenly there is this intense urge running through my body that I need to release. Almost came to a relapse but I held on put on the brakes and deleted the file ASAP. Yet that intense horny lingering feeling took hold for a while and then subsided. But damn once that flatline ends without you knowing and that sudden urge rears its head is quite challenging. I can definitely say if you lack even a bit of will power and mental strength you are going to give into temptation.

Lesson here? LOL. Don't play with fire and do not allow curiosity get to you. Don't try to test yourself and just let things be and let all of this work out by themselves.

 

I can say right now the urges can be subdued, ignored, and controlled. That is given I don't have any triggers. I mean a girl in lingerie and cleavage does not really do it. A girlie mag and your typical XXX clip would be triggering it. Which is good. This means that scary flatline is gone. For now. Now that the urges and my libido is "back" would be another challenge to be managed since the danger of relapse can be around the corner.

Just funny how your flatline can be gone and your libido returns in subtle non alarming ways. Which can be a real danger. Especially for someone who put so many days in.

 

LOL. Interesting. The opposite side of the flatline challenge. This is like a all or nothing kind of thing. Either you are dealing with not feeling anything to dealing with feeling everything. No middle ground. Nature is one true bitch of a beast!