So many issue dealing w/ P are OCD related. Meaningfulness is recalling positive occurrences, like yours, and jumping on them (recalling the Meaningful) when struggles or obsessive thoughts occur. You replace the good stuff with the crap stuff. All good--thank goodness your brain wires recall the good stuff.
Yea...me acting out, & remembering those moments are more controlling than P, at this point. I've been P free 40 days, but struggling with wanting to mess around with others...P and my impulses to copy, then copying into reality, is sticking in my brain. This showed me my addiction, very new in my life. Very unhealthy. But I can say, I can control acting out easier that controling P, which was way more controlling 40 days ago. Do I make and sense?
Not only do you make sense. You inspire us to get free and stay free. Nicely done! Win this one today!
Maybe you don't. But it's a well-known fact that human beings have a tendency to romanticise the past and only remember the good bits. The guy who quits drinking will often think back on the good times he had with friends rather than what it did to his health and his bank balance. The guy who gives up seeing escorts will think back on the times when the sex was incredible, rather than the times he had no chemistry with the escort he saw and felt like he had been ripped off. People always remember the past as being better than it actually was, and that's something that holds a lot of addicts back.
I promise, although I could relapse, after 40 days, clean, I hate P. I hate what it has done to my sex life w/ my wife. No hiding the fact that I do not romanticism about past P. See SacredSexualityProject. COM. The more intellectual balance you have over emotional driven struggles,you will outstrip P in favor of good & right action. Understand the masses of men impacted. As Hitler castrated Jews, so porn makers castrate us, over time. Hate the assholes. Righteous hate may be good therapy.
Sorry friend. Simply put: 1) Get the facts about P. SacredSexualityProject has good stuff. Although, your counter suggests you are doing very well!) 2) Put hate to work to motivate you. Porn profiteers make billions off us-they wreck our minds and bodies. Don't let these guys win. 3) I hate P and am not drawn to it. Some other post suggested we look back at it with delight. I don't. Sorry for the wordy confusion.
I am so with you @CreatedRight! So many didn't resist Hitler because they had no hope of freedom. Those who knew better resisted. And we know how that story ended. The P dragon will whisper how it can never die. That is a lie. Believe in freedom!
My twin brother living with me is toxic. He is very messy and doesn't like to spend money so he won't move out. Maybe I need to charge him rent