On day 5... wow?!

I'm almost in 5 days without fapping, and I don't even really have a desire to do so! What is wrong with me?! I have noticed I seem to be paying more attention to my female friends, communicating with them and listening and caring a bit more than I do usually though, but that may have nothing to do with it.

 

Actually I've just been thinking more about study and how petrified I am to go back to uni aged 25/26 as a mature student, knowing I'll be there for the next 6 years. But yeah, I simply have been avoiding too much sexual thoughts. I've had them, but havent masturbated, and definitely haven't looked at porn.

 

Thank you. The thing, im not the type of person who will settle in life for something like ''plumber'' or a career that I haven't carved my way to. I studied music originally, but to make descent money in music is extremely difficult, you have to be the best of the best and live in London basically. Then I studied a degree in nutrition. Little did I know to make enough money to live on in nutrition is difficult, and you have to teach it as well. I figured the very least I could do is add to my CV with a relevant degree in another area, which also has the options of post-grad study. So here I am, going back again.. and most likely will do a Bsc and then a PHD. It just upsets me seeing everyone else settling down early and I'm studying and working towards a 'life'. But maybe it's just my mind set, there are absolutely loads of mature students. Thank you for the encouragement.

 

And by the way, Im almost on day 6! I've noticed that I've started to get 'morning wood' again! It's not 'hard', more semi, but wow... I still have no desire to look at porn, I feel too busy and wound up about uni to do it.

 

Yes I know it'll get harder. But 5 days is surely doing my nervous system and body good!