FEMDOM

Hi All,

For the first time I would like to share about my addiction to femdom porn.

My earliest fantasies had some element of sexual dominance but incredibly mild. With a dial up connection in the mid 90's I discovered internet porn. I initially looked at vanilla material but very quickly I remembered my early fantasies about dominant women and I found a whole world of images available.

Within a matter of days I had gone from mild spanking images to websites like cruella and the OWK. As a teenager at the time, the feeling of exhilaration was overhwelming. I recognise now that I was experiencing anxiety while looking at the images and when this was then combined with sexual release I was hooked.

I have carried shame all my life about these interests. There were days when I had watched this material on a rainy day when I "should have been revising" and the feeling of depression consumed me.

I went to psychotherapy for two years and couldnt pluck up the courage to discuss it. I have been meditating for a few years now and I recognise that anxiety and release has become linked

So, on this site I see the beginning of the approach to dealing with complex Psycho Sexual issues. Reading this site was a bit like the film a Beautiful Mind when Russell Crowe realizes that he is hallucinating by applying rational thought. The more times I give in, the more those pathways are developed.