Heirs' June "Stop the Autopilot" Challenge thread

6/6
1) This prolly sounds like small beans but I brewed some coffee this morning and, in a fit of spontaneity, I chilled it and drank my coffee cold. Don't hate though. It was a game changer. My challenge lately has been getting up and approaching the day with vigor and positivity. Any little thing to start off my day well is definitely a disruption of autopilot.
2) I want to set some goals for being more productive with things. I will start making lists and checking things off as I go

 

For today

Part 1 -Today for me was a day of first. I'm sort of embarrassed to say but I had my first kiss today lol. Felt really great and I couldn't believe how natural I was during it. Also I tried sushi today for the first time at this restaurant which was also pretty good.

Part 2 - Spent 20 minutes going over the day's events and thinking on how to bounce back from my relapse yesterday. I'm honest to god sick of this addiction and I'm really trying to kick this for good. I'm going to keep trying..

 

Do not be embarrassed about having your first kiss, and good for you that is was so good.

 

Day 7

First Part

I long boarded for more than usual today and went a different route.

Second Part

While longboarding I thought about a lot. Today is my ex gf birthday. I sent her a happy b-day message, but I do not think she has seen it yet. I miss her and kind of still love her. It has been over 4 months since she broke up with me, but I still miss her. I realize the relationship might not have been going anywhere and would have suffered with distance, but she is still the best girl I have ever dated. So it hurts that she stopped liking me. But such is life and I will move on in time. I also realized that I am excited by being single in certain ways. For instance this last weekend I danced at my friend's wedding. I slow danced with two girls, one who was just a really good friend and the other I just met. It was a cool little interaction that could not have really occurred if I was still in a relationship. So there are positives.

Stay Strong!

 

Day 7
Part 1
Today I enjoyed a quiet bus ride home. Not much talking from me, an odd way to conclude the final day of school.

Part 2
I thought about how I would miss my friends and how I already miss the friends I've already left. I decided that I should make the moments memorable and settle whatever I have left to do here.

 

6/7
1) Decided to take the long way home after work and walked through a park. It was kinda good to not know where I was going for about 2 minutes and just appreciate the new sights.
2) I'm feeling confident about my final tomorrow. I notice that I feel generally better having made the commitment to stop PM.

 

Took a new rout home from work and got to hang out with the guys tonight it was a good

 

6/7

I.
My fitness training took on a new aspect yesterday that was very out of the ordinary. All I can say is the Rise of the Dragon Warrior has begun.

II.
I reflected upon how miserable most of the world is. Life seems to be just so fuckin shitty for like 90% of people on the planet, while the upper 10% are livin the dream. I'm sure there are all kinds of people in between those 2 extremes.

 

I'm really curious on how you would do that, this is a recovering thread.

 

We don't see things the way they are; we see things the way we are.

 

http://www.jamesaltucher.com/2012/05/love-yourself-as-if-your-life-depended-on-it/

It's not a scam. Over 1,800 reviews and 4.8 stars on Amazon doesn't lie. Simply not a scam. It is a 5 dollar book. It is a mental exercise in learning to love yourself. Some people don't like it because it's so simple and repetitive. But it was written for people like you who constantly hate themselves. How do you fix that? Well you're on your own now guy.

How often do you dwell on thoughts of hating yourself? When you choose to see the negative in things, I'm afraid you're just gonna stay stuck.

Now I am really done trying to offer you any support.

Best wishes.

 

Nice!! You started to pray.

Now where's that rubber band?

 

Keep pressuring him. Pressure builds diamonds.

 

Hello All:

Today is the first day that I felt like fapping. I am logging here in an attempt to hold on to my streak of now 6 days PMO free.

I have my own business (that I have been neglecting) and recently have been doing some contract work for another small business. Trying to do both at the same time meant that neither one was run really well. I was sort of let go from the small business, and now am 100% on my own. This morning I turned in my keys and the anxiety of upcoming bills, rent, trips etc started to come. My first instinct was to turn to porn, but I remembered my challenge and my word.

I have been working out daily which has helped immensely with my outlook. Taking the time just now to read through the forum and see that others are still on the challenge has helped me today. I am only alone during the day, and I do not have the privacy to fap at night, so I am focused on just making it through the day.

I am grateful to be a part of this group. I think I will make it today. Happy June!

 

Congratulations in your first kiss @Scarr215 . You should not be embarrased at all, each of us has its own tempo
Fercho

 

I: I held myself accountable in the midst of some cravings for alcohol which has not happened the last few relapses.

II: I pondered how I need to reorganize the day's priorities, to make time go by more effectively.

 

He's not getting off that easy.

 

Part 1 - Today was my day off so I didn't do much today but rest up a bit. I have so far today resisted some serious urges. Meditation and exercise have helped me a lot so far. Also listening to some music helped as well. If it gets too bad I'm going to take a long cold shower.

Part 2 - spent almost a half hour just thinking and trying to find the root cause of my recent relapses. I know I let frustration and depression get me last time. Now I'm working on dealing with this next time.

 

I haven't really kept up with this challenge. Boy oh boy.

Today I took a different bus than usual, and instead of listening to music while on the bus I read a book. Was nice.

I'm going to walk to the store now for some lunch makings for my new job! Woo.
During the walk I'm going to reflect on things. Then when I get home I'm going to meditate and stuff.

 

Haven't been keeping up. failed to execute my goals and among other things has led to a relapse.

Haven't been getting up early in the morning but have been meditating.

The wake up challenge starts tomorrow, i'm not out yet. 6AM wake up, shower, toasts, walk.