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My 13th Month clean: getting to adulthood

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by fercho29, Jun 11, 2016.

  1. Hi Fellow Fapstronauts:
    Today is my 13th Month PMO free celebration.
    I am very happy and proud of one more month. After my big First Year celebration I kept feeling better and better every day.
    This month I experienced importan changes. Although I still have one or two urges per month (some stronger and some weaker) , this month i started feeling differently toward them.
    I can "watch them" from outside now, I can contemplate them and avoid the urge to grow inside my brain and become "important".
    I can tell the urge: "You are a shitty fantasy, a delusion not worth at all, and I will not sucumbe to your "mermaid thing".
    Last week I had a strong urge during a business meeting, I had a crush in a guy that entered the room and for 5 seconds I could not concentrate in anything else. But i reacted immediately, left the room and started repeating inside my head like 100 times :" I should not objectify". I felt the "hot flashes" disappear and my head getting clear again. When I came back to the meeting I concentrated 5 minutes on the meeting and left afterwards because I was not needed ny longer.
    In the past I would have stayed to have a binge of images of this guy to feed my lust and have "enough good material" to MO fantasizing with him later.
    This is a big difference i feel after 13 months. I can put distance from the urge and kill it.
    I can tell the urge that it is just a lie, and that I will not spend my energies on it any longer.
    I fell happy and confident that the worst part of my reboot is over.
    For first time I feel that the addiction is getting part of my past. that I do not need to be afraid that will get back. That the "Gremlin" (as Mark Queppet describes in NoFap Academy) is dead.
    Although i do not want to become complacent and I will stick to NoFap, I feel that my addiction is dying and will not get back as far as I keep my focus.
    After so many years of fapping like a teenager, I feel I have become an adult.
    I am Jewish, and when we get to 13 years old we celebrate our Bar Mitzvah, which means becoming an adult in front of the community.
    As a coincidence, in my 13th month of reboot I have become an adult in my new life as a non-addict (or a "recovered addict", I do not know which is the best way to call it).
    And it feel great, it was worth all the pain and the sacrifice I went through!
    Let's keep on fighting
    Fercho
     
  2. abra

    abra Fapstronaut

    Congratulations for your successes and for becoming an adult!
     
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  3. DannyCool

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    Wow. These are great stories of overcoming fantasy like a boss. This is the most important thing as you say fantasy is delusion. Do you find you are able to make better decisions now than you use to? Can you see what is going on better and understand people better? I often think if i am going to fantasise about someone I might as well ask them out otherwise it is not real. Anyhow I don't want to ask anyone out so the fantasy has to go. Wonderful work for prioritising freeing the fantasy. I do the same thing with anger. I soon as I see I am frustrated I will clear it ahead of anything else that is going on. Staying happy is the number one.
     
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  4. Hi @DannyCool . YEs, I can think with my brain instead of with my dick, and this is a big difference.
    In the past I could not take rational decisions because my brain got foggy when the urges came. I can identify now the lie inside my fantasies and this takes out all the glamour and the beauty of it, thus I can lower the excitement and think more clearly.
    Fercho
     
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  5. Thank you very much @abra !
     
  6. Dear Fapstronauts:
    I want to share with you how happy I am...today I can proudly say that I HAVE BEEN 400 DAYS PMO FREE.
    Some days are better than others. Some days I got urges, some strong enough to shake my body and send me a couple of minutes to "zombie mode".
    I am having too much problems at work and at home, and this increases considerably the amount of urges I get. Porn is not a temptation any longer, I just get urges when I see some guy on the street that I like. ( I am bisexual). The most stress or problems I have, the most I start "idolizing" the body of other guys, and thinking I am not that strong, feel weak and should "serve" them and humiliate myself as I used to do before my reboot.
    I know I will live with the "dormant Gremlin" inside me much longer. I do not dream any more that this feeling will completely disappear, this some times makes me feel a bit depressed.
    But I look 400 days back, I compare and I realized I do not have the right to be depressed. I improved as a human being as never before. I can restrain my animalistic urges, be a rational human and avoid acting on my urges.
    I stay clean to honor my wife and my sons, they deserve a husband/father that is 100% present, not the lousy version they had in the past, when my mind was 50% of the time wondering around porn, escorts and MO.
    So I commit myself in my 400 day to stay strong, learn how to live with my "not so perfect" mind and sexual orientation, and keep fighting the Gremlin so he does not gets awake
    Fercho
     
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  7. programer

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    13 months is Incredible. Keep going on. Lets make it 2 yrs.

    Indeed, Loss of Semen brings Death & Gain of Semen brings more than just Life.
    programee
     
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  8. Thank you very much @programer for your support
    You are right, MO means killing potential babies, I have never thought it like this but it is a good insight
    Fercho
     
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  9. programer

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    Yea man, It's death. That is a saying from the Buthists.
     
  10. Hi Fellow Fapstronauts:
    I want to share this Instagram post which may inspire you.
    This guy lost his two legs in Afghanistan. Instead of lowering his arms and sinking in any addiction, he chose to fight, got a Master Degree in Harvard and succeed in life. It is very inspirational. Some days I feel depressed with so many problems at work and at home, and urges try to come back to my mind. The "rosy promise" of 5 minutes of pleasure seems very tempting.
    I can now read his story, look at his picture and realize that this is not the path to succeed. There are "no bed of roses, no pleasure cruises", as Freddy Mercury sung.
    I need to cope with my pain and my discomfort, my problems are not even 10% as tough as those of this guy
    Let's keep on fighting
    Fercho
     

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  11. Got a lisp, pal?
     
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  12. Taoists say ejaculations bring death faster too.

    An Ayruvedic bit if I may since we happened upon the topic ;)

    "Abir,

    It is called masturbation.

    Of course, it is very bad for health. It makes you "dry, loose, skinny, weak, and impotent" day by day. I am a doctor. You will require nearly five minutes to read my detailed answer.

    What the Traditional Medical Science Says
    """"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""...
    According to the traditional medical science, a man should not do masturbation or sex before the age of 24 years. A woman should not do them before the age of 22 years. Later, sex may be done at intervals of 35 days or more than 35 days to prevent any adverse effects on the body. During these activities, many important minerals, hormones, and fluids responsible for the following are rapidly lost with semen.

    [1] Masculinty ------------------------> masculine appearance and behaviour, body hair, body shine
    [2] Growth of the body -------------> increase in height and weight
    [3] Maintenance of the body -----> resistance to diseases, healing power
    [4] Physical strength ---------------> density, stamina, tolerance
    [5] Mental strength ------------------> fearlessness, self-confidence, positiveness


    Semen - The Foundation of a Male Body
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    Semen is the foundation of a male body. All other entities in a male body like bones, muscles, veins, and capillaries depend on semen for their growth, maintenance, and strength. If semen is frequently wasted, all the parts of the body are badly afffected. They become dry, loose, and weak. This is true of the genetal parts as well as of the other ones. The hormones responsible for masculinity and sexual capabilities are also present in the semen. Thus, with the loss of semen, these hormones are also lost.


    Why You Should Give Up Masturbation
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    You are making your body dry, loose, weak, and impotent just for pleasure. You eat. You masturbate. It is like "a tank getting filled through one pipe and getting empty through another pipe".....!

    All the three-----masturbation, wet dreams, and sex-----are very harmful to health. A man's semen is his masculinity, energy, strength, and life. Each time semen is wasted, his masculinity, energy, strength, and life decrease. This is simple Mathematics.....!


    How Semen is Formed
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    Just as milk cream is the cream of milk, semen is the cream of the males' blood. It is very precious. Semen is created by the secretory glands from the food we eat. According to a book I have read, only about 20 g semen is produced from the food that a man consumes in nearly 35 days.

    (1) From 32,000 g food, approximately 11,153 g chyle is formed.

    (2) From 11,153 g chyle, approximately 3,887 g blood is formed.

    (3) From 3,887 g blood, approximately 1,355 g flesh is formed.

    (4) From 1,355 g flesh, approximately 472 g fat is formed.

    (5) From 472 g fat, approximately 164 g bone is formed.

    (6) From 164 g bone, approximately 57 g bone marrow is formed.

    (7) From 57 g bone marrow, approximately 20 g semen is formed.


    Where Semen is Located
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    A common and huge misconception is that semen is located only in one part of the man's body, and that, after the man loses it due to wet dream, masturbation, or sex, it gets filled within the next few hours "automatically". This is completely wrong...!

    Semen is located throughout the man's body, mixed with blood. A small proportion of this semen is located at one part at the centre of the body. After the man loses it due to one of the afore-mentioned reasons, the semen from the other parts of the body is brought to fill this part. As a result, the density of the blood, and so, the density of the body decreases, and the man looks a little less masculine than before. If such loss takes place frequently and over a long span of time, the man may become impotent. In some cases, the situation is so grave that the man looks like "an eunuch".


    Relation between Semen and Testosterone
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    Another huge misconception is that there is no relation between semen and testosterone. This is completely wrong...! Testosterone is mixed with the semen itself. Each time semen is lost, the testosterone mixed with that semen is lost too. Testosterone is very important for masculinity and sexual capabilities.


    Effects of Frequent Semen Loss
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    According to the traditional medical science, a human male should not do masturbation or sex before the age of 24 years at least. Later, he may do sex at intervals of 45 days or more than 45 days to prevent any adverse effects on the body. Otherwise, some or all of the following effects may occur:


    Effects on the Skull Region
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    -----drying, loosening, weakening, and falling of hair
    -----mild or severe headache
    -----pale face with anaemia
    -----acne or eruptions on the face
    -----dark circles around the eyes
    -----sunken eyes
    -----short-sightedness
    -----incomplete beard


    Effects on the Trunk Region
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    -----pain in shoulders
    -----palpitation of the heart
    -----dyspnea - difficulty in breathing
    -----back pain
    -----stomach pain
    -----gradual degradation of kidneys


    Effects on the Genetal Parts
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    -----wet dreams or nocturnal emissions
    -----incontinence
    -----discharge of semen with urine
    -----premature ejaculation (only 5-10 minutes instead of the normal 35-40 minutes)
    -----enlargement of the testicles
    -----pain in the testicles
    -----involuntary urination in sleep


    Effects on the Legs Region
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    -----pain in thighs
    -----pain in knees
    -----pain in ankles
    -----foot pain
    -----palpitation of legs


    Effects on the Whole Body
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    -----phthisis - wasting of tissues
    -----boils on the body
    -----early exhaustion
    -----physical and mental lethargy - lack of energy


    Other effects
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    -----physical, mental, and moral debility
    -----mental imbalance
    -----sudden anger
    -----sudden irritation
    -----drowsiness
    -----laziness
    -----gloominess
    -----loss of memory
    -----fickle-mindedness
    -----lack of thinking power
    -----bad dreams
    -----restlessness of mind
    -----sudden jealousy
    -----sudden fear
    -----lack of masculinity
    -----effiminate or womanish behaviour


    In short, just dreary, cheerless existence... :(


    I hope you have realized that you have to preserve your semen. Hence, give up the habit of masturbation FOREVER.

    PRESERVE SEMEN..... PRESERVE MASCULINITY.
    PRESERVE SEMEN..... PRESERVE ENERGY.
    PRESERVE SEMEN..... PRESERVE STRENGTH.
    PRESERVE SEMEN..... PRESERVE LIFE."
     
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  13. Ah hell while we're at it why not throw in an excerpt from the Brahmacharya guide,

    6. THE VALUE OF SEMEN
    My dear brothers! The vital energy, the Veerya that supports your life, which is the Prana of Pranas, which shines in your sparkling eyes, which beams in your shining cheeks, is a great treasure for you. Remember this point well. Veerya is the quintessence of blood. One drop of semen is manufactured out of forty drops of blood. Mark here how valuable this fluid is!

    A tree draws the essence or Rasa from the earth. This essence is circulated throughout the tree, its twigs, branches, leaves, flowers and fruits. The shining colours and life in the leaves, flowers and fruits are due to this Rasa. Similarly, the Veerya that is manufactured by the cells of the testes out of blood gives colour and vitality to the human body and its different organs.

    According to Ayurveda, semen is the last Dhatu that is formed out of food. Out of food is manufactured chyle. Out of chyle comes blood. Out of blood comes flesh. Out of flesh comes fat. Out of fat comes bone. Out of bone comes marrow. Out of marrow comes semen. These are the Sapta Dhatus or the seven Dhatus that support this life and body. Mark here how precious is semen! It is the last essence. It is the Essence of essences. The Veerya comes out of the very marrow that lies concealed inside the bones.

    There are three divisions in each Dhatu. Semen nourishes the physical body, the heart and the intellect. Only that man who uses the physical body, the heart and the intellect can have perfect Brahmacharya. A wrestler who uses his physical body only, but keeps the intellect and the heart undeveloped, cannot expect to have full Brahmacharya. He can have Brahmacharya of the body only, but not of the mind and the heart. The semen that belongs to the heart and the mind will certainly flow out. If an aspirant does only Japa and meditation, if he does not develop the heart, and if he does not practice physical exercise, he will have only mental Brahmacharya. The portion of the semen, which goes to nourish the heart and the body, will flow out. But an advanced Yogi who dives deep in meditation will have full Brahmacharya even if he does not take physical exercise.

    Semen is the quintessence of food or blood. One drop of semen in manufactured out of forty drops of blood according to modern medical science. According to Ayurveda, it is elaborated out of eighty drops of blood. The two testes or seeds that are located in the scrotal bag are called secretory glands. The cells of these testes have been endowed with the peculiar property of secreting semen from the blood. Just as bees collect honey in the honeycomb drop by drop, so also, the cells of the testes collect semen drop by drop from the blood. Then this fluid is taken by the two ducts or tubes to the vesiculae seminalis. Under excitement, it is thrown out by special ducts, called ejaculatory ducts, into the urethra where it is mixed with the prostatic juice.

    Semen is found in a subtle state in all the cells of the body. Just as sugar is all-pervading in the sugar-cane, butter in milk, so also, semen is pervading the whole body. Just as the butter milk is thin after the butter is removed, so also, semen is thinned by its wastage. The more the wastage of semen the more is the weakness. In the Yoga Sastras it is said:

    Maranam Bindu Patanat,
    Jivanam Bindu Rakshanat.

    Falling of semen brings death; preservation of semen gives life. Semen is the real vitality in men. It is the hidden treasure in man. It imparts Brahma-Tejas to the face and strength to the intellect.
     
  14. Thank you very much @Toshiro ! Great videos and picture!
    Fercho
     
  15. Hi Fellow Fapstronauts:
    I want to share this Instagram post which may inspire you.
    This guy lost his two legs in Afghanistan. Instead of lowering his arms and sinking in any addiction, he chose to fight, got a Master Degree in Harvard and succeed in life. It is very inspirational. Some days I feel depressed with so many problems at work and at home, and urges try to come back to my mind. The "rosy promise" of 5 minutes of pleasure seems very tempting.
    I can now read his story, look at his picture and realize that this is not the path to succeed. There are "no bed of roses, no pleasure cruises", as Freddy Mercury sung.
    I need to cope with my pain and my discomfort, my problems are not even 10% as tough as those of this guy
    Let's keep on fighting
    Fercho Screen Shot 2016-06-20 at 3.33.22 PM.jpg
     
  16. Hi Fellow Fapstronauts
    I want to share with you some passages from George Collins "Breaking the Cycle" which help me a lot when I get and urge to stop for a few seconds instead of acting out. Have it handy and read it when you are entering "zombie mode", I wish this will help you:

    First Thought Wrong
    Remind myself that my First Thoughts are usually wrong when I start the addicted process. Disrupting my addict's thought process might not work until I get to the Third or Fourth thought.
    Most of my thoughts are recycled from earlier thoughts and are meaningless . The more I can quiet my mind and move to a state of conscious awareness , the more those thoughts will rush away
    Maybe the thoughts will always be there but I will be the one in control of the situation, not them.
    This is not who I AM, this is the story I TOLD myself and that my addicted brain wants me to continue to believe
    I CAN TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND NOT LISTEN TO THE FIRST THOUGHT WRONG. After that I can ask myself: WHAT ELSE? And make a POSITIVE CHOICE.

    Fercho
     

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