Entering into maturity

OK, two things here, because I can relate to what you live.
1 - The root cause of the problem
2 - The treatment

What I'm going to write below may sound a bit woowoo, but I can swear (as a scientist) that it's much more than that, and it is very practical. And effective. I came across what I say here years ago, but didn't try : the problem was that I had not the maturity to understand, and it's only when I had become desperate that I thought I had nothing to lose trying it.

1 - Root cause : Honestly, you won't be able to really control your emotions, but you can prevent them to go amok. Maturity is a vast subject, and I guess it comes when you acknowledge where your emotions come from, and the wounds you have. No book in the universe will change your mind. But one can be used as a jump start. For me, it was "Taming your outer child", by Susan Anderson. It helped me to understand how to take care of myself. It's an "inner child" thing, but it's very practical and maybe you'll require some therapy to get through it. I wish I had it when I was your age...
2 - Once you understand where your emotions come from, you'll need to practice mind mastery . The Big Me/Little Me exercises in the book mentioned above will help, but you'll also need a tool to handle what's going on in your life and be aware of your own thought process. That's where meditation can really help you. I tried to meditate alone (and failed) then tried an app called Calm (and failed), but I'm now using Headspace, and honestly, it's better that I thought it would be. You can try it for 10 days free, but it's a bit expensive after that (about 60$ a year). I decided to do it, and never regretted. Everyday I practice at least 10mn of guided meditation (it's different every time), sometimes more. And I'm calmer and more present than I have ever been.

In a nutshell : your emotional problems come from your wounds, from your childhood. I hate the "inner child" stuff, but it has been quite effective. Once you acknowledge the root cause, work on your brain response through meditation.

And don't forget : reading a book is just a jump start. You'll have to practice every day for years to get over it. So start now.

 

If you still feel like a child, then you don't have that many responsibilities to take care of. The only difference I see from an adult and a child is well the biological age, and how many more responsibilities an adult has versus a child. One easy one at your age is to ask yourself this question: When are you moving out of your parent's/independent's house? If you aren't generating your own income to take care of financial matters then you likely think you have "lots of free time". If you begin to prepare to generate your own income to support yourself or others, you will need to plan how you're going to do it. If it means going to school to get a degree or working to get experience to obtain higher income.

 

"Homecoming" is what brought me to "Taming Your Outer Child" (TYOC), so I definitely agree.
I think TYOC goes deeper than Homecoming, but that's just my take on this.

Neil Strauss took a similar path.
He's well known for "The Game", but his latest book "The Truth" tell how he got out of the PUA stuff and got more "adult".
By the way : don't read "The Truth", it's filled with hardcore sex and will lead to a relapse.

 

There are few things my friend which helps one of them is sharing. Controlling the mind is not an easy task. But it is possible. If you are interested please join me in my 30 day venture. I would love your company