New to NoFap to conquer the schlick!

Hi everyone,

I just decided to sign up to this site. It just felt like it is time. I am 30 years old, from Tokyo, Japan, married and female. Yes, that's right, girls do this, too! I am feeling a bit lost as I haven't seen any other girls on the site yet, but no matter our gender, I think we ultimately all have the same goal: To have an enjoyable, "real" sex life again.

I don't watch too much porn, but I do it myself a lot. Too much actually. I can't even remember when I started, I feel I have always been doing this. Which is also why I never questioned why it is so hard, almost impossible for men to give me an orgasm. I enjoy having sex with real people - quite a lot actually, and I am very attracted to my husband physically, but still the death grip I have taught myself to enjoy has made it almost impossible for him to get me to orgasm. This has to change!

And like many of you, I have enjoyed watching porn. Sometimes binging, sometimes not at all. But same as many of you, I found myself looking for harder and more extreme stuff every time. I have very good visual memory and vivid imagination. Watching a bit of porn could get me a long way and was on mental replay constantly when with my husband or masturbating. After a while I realized that without it, I can't get turned on.

This has to stop. I have said this to myself many times, but never made the commitment. So now I am going for a 90 day no porn, no masturbation challenge. Only sex with my husband and flirting with sexy, real life guys will be allowed as stimulation, to reboot and for fun.

I want to pull through, but can't do it on my own! I am looking forward to talking to many of you during the journey.

Starting today, 05/02, 08/02 will be the finishing line for me and by then I hope to be free and leading the happy, fulfilled sex life I always wanted.