Captain's Log - NoFap Challenge

Good early morning from the east coast.

For the past week or so, I've been lurking around the site because I've come to the realization that I've relied too much on PMO where it has negatively effected my life and I'm ready to move on. I think in a lot of ways my PMO issue is based on boredom and habit, but I realized I had an issue when I had P induced ED with someone who I truly cared for and wanted to be with for the rest of my life. I've had plenty of sex partners before and have been able to satisfy them but in the last year, it's been going downhill and have noticed how PMO has not only affected my sex life, but also how I connect with people on a day to day basis as well.

I'm cutting it out because I am going to be a successful person and PMO is hindering that for me.

I'm cutting it out because I am going to have healthy relationships with people and not have PMO cloud my thoughts.

I'm cutting it out because having the self control to quit PMO is going to create a snowball effect in my life and allow me to have better self control in other areas of my life.

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I'm going to use this space as a log, when I'm feeling weak. Instead of turning to PMO. I'll write my thoughts out in order to replace a negative habit for a positive habit and I'll share any tips I have a long the way.

I do love the way that everyone supports each other and because of that I gathered the courage to create an account and open up about this issue.

 

Captain's log. NoFap. Day 4.

So far, I've come to the realization that staying away from temptation is the only way to beat this. I've tried No Fapping before and then I would be bored/curious about whats going on in the world of porn. I'd make a deal with myself that I would only watch a few preview videos just to get my fix and move on. Somedays that would work, but I believe it would plant a seed for more "quick viewing sessions" which would then lead to me relapsing.

So far, so good. It seems that it's always been a bit easy to make it during the week. The weekend is when it gets tough. TGIF. -_-

 

Captain's log. NoFap. Day 6.
Last night was a bit of a struggle. I woke up in the middle of the night with an erection and a strong urge to PMO. I was rolling around my bed struggling for a few minutes. Eventually, I decided to put to action a few tips that I saw on here and take some deep breathes. After a while the burgers subsided a bit and I ended up listening to a podcast to get my mind off of it.

Something else that helps me not PMO is just thinking about how it makes me feel emotionally now. When I would relapse before, I always felt so disgusted with myself. I really didn't like what I was doing even while I was doing it; it was just that I needed to get this energy out. Porn had turn into a bad habit and something that I didn't want effecting my life. Hopefully, that same mentality helps me through the weekend,

 

Captain's log. NoFap. Day 9.
I literally feel on top of the world. Not sure if it's because I'm flatlining, but this is the longest time that I've gone without PMO and I feel great. No major urges. On Sunday, I got sort of close. One of my triggers has been smoking weed because you just in general feel good. Everything is good while being high for the most part. Anyway, I partook with some friends and then headed home and I was worried that I would relapse, but I ended up just turning off my computer and read a book. I know it's pretty early, but I think I might have a handle on this. Haha. But I'm sure I'll be back tomorrow with tears, but so far so good.