Longer the addiction, the more specific the porn?

i think that's totally true. I never watched regular porn anymore, i didn't care at all, because i really needed that one type i liked. Im 30 days without PMO now, and im so much better. Sometimes this toughts pass over my head during sex, but not that offen, and i can get excited just with my GF. Keep going man, will worth it

 

Yes it's very true. It's PIED. Nothing in this world can arouse you, not even porn.

 

true, over the years watching porn I started watching gay porn because straight porn wouldn't do it anymore, even though I'm not gay myself, after a week of not watching porn at all I found straight porn arousing again, I'll see how it progresses

 

Sounds like my experience

 

I think it can be different for everyone, but the common pattern is the need for novelty as the addiction progresses. I've been addicted to internet porn for over 20 years, but I was still able to enjoy and PMO to standard vanilla porn. It depended on my mood. My tastes did progress to more deviant forms (not illegal, just not "vanilla") and over the past recent years I would search those first vs. progressing up to it during my binges or sessions. It has now reached the point where nothing is off limits save for gay porn - which I've never watched nor had a desire to - but I recall seeing some pretty disgusting things and getting off to it. I suppose I never like to limit myself to just one category because after awhile I would get bored and need to move on to something else.

 

I found all of these posts very interesting. With me it was always pretty simple. Like all of you there were some things I didn't like and some things I looked for that got me going. Over the years as porn became more sophisticated and of better quality I in turn became more selective as well. Then with the internet and places like Twitter it was like you could actually have a relationship with some of these girls. That was when things got crazy for me. I latched on to one girl almost at the beginning of her career and it became obsessive. As I watched the changes in her career and her life, it was like watching someone I actually knew. Anyway, after a very unpleasant incident and what we call in AA a "spiritual awakening" I read an article in an April 2016 TIME magazine where NoFap was mentioned, and Voila' here I am. I discovered, that even at my age, I was more than capable of being an idiot, and Fapping isn't the only thing NoFap helped me with. I came to see Twitter not as a fun place to go, but as a "dangerous neighborhood", one to avoid. Not just avoiding this girls Twitter, but also staying away from people she "followed" personally, which was the one thing I wanted but never got. Over the last almost 3 years, I had never fallen for the Wish List hustle, or had never given her any money or gifts. However, as she professed to be a great animal rights advocate and I had seen her "like" some of her fans who donated money to the ASPCA and other groups and had supposedly "matched" the donation, I thought just once I'd do it. So I made a small basic donation and sent a tweet requesting a acknowledgment, the response was ZIP!
That was the final straw and what got me into NoFap, not me "jerking off", but me being "jerked off" by just another "porn hustler." Glad to be here!!!

 

Thats true.My criterion raised since start of M and watching P.Lately I find it hard to find scene in P that will satisfy me.Like I remeber randomly clicking on one video and M to that video,now so many things changed,I wont M just to "any girl",it must be "a special girl".Like I pick everything now,from enviroment to even clothes.If I just think about it,l see what have I became.

 

Ya same here..
But my preference of porn has got really disgusting and revolting..

Vanilla porn doesn't do it for me, I have to find the next best thing...harder core...

If my family ever seen my internet history they would think something is wrong with me...this 21 yr old with a baby face that could pass for 16...(do innocent looking, I don't even wear revealing clothes I'm super modest cause I'm religious) into these types of things.

The last month before i stopped pmo..
I had just gotten into a new type of porn that was super disgusting (its not illegal tho)

 

I've had a history with P since the days of dial up connection and actually having to rent movies. Fairly quickly I became interested in certain themes. For me it's always been about the search for the "perfect" scene. I think I got more of a rush from finding a scene than actually "using" it. In early days on the internet it took more searching to find the content that I liked. After awhile there got to be so much free content that it was easy to find what I wanted. To make the "search" more difficult I changed my focus from pro to "amateur" content and look for the same themes.

It took me a long time to learn something that now seems so obvious. There is no "perfect" scene. I would just keep searching indefinitely. As George Collins puts it, "You can never get enough of that which doesn't satisfy you".

 

Another weird thing is that we will get "turned on" almost to anything(I mean anything from P or just looking on average girl),but after that almost nothing will satisfy our needs.

 

As a 13 year addict, my desire was always a spectrum of types. I think that is pretty much said for most addicts. When I began my addiction in 2003, most of the porn available was through pay sites and a few free novelty sites. But in 2008-2009, the advent of PornTubes came to the internet. Every type of porn you wanted was available. I would spend hours and hours getting my fix of it all. The PornTubes really took my addiction to a place I really have not come back from........

 

@dannylomora I couldn't help but smile as I was reading your post. I was remembering the first time I typed "sex" into a browser on a desktop computer that had "dial-up." Those "tube sites" are a bane to the "pornies" because they get absolutely nothing when people watch them IT'S FREE!!! and it cuts into their bottom line which in reality is pretty thin as it is. I also remember the VHS tapes plugged into a VCR and then CDs came out, but the tube sites were amazing. Of course then came social media and a whole other world opened up. I had my favorites going way back and enjoyed "getting my fix" watching them. The problem for me was with social media it seemed you could actually have a relationship with a girl, and many of them created narratives based on their real lives, where they were from, and personal stuff. A few years ago when some guy in CA who worked in a lab where the porn people are tested released personal info on a few thousand girls to WikiLeaks it was amazing. That's when my real problem began. Over a period of a couple of years I developed a "porn crush" on one girl that was obsessive to say the least. It took over my life and even though I got off watching other girls, this babe was my drug of choice. Near the end of last year, I had a very embarrassing incident happen after being "blocked" by her on Twitter, and I realized I needed help, and I reached out and got it, but what closed the deal was when I read an article in TIME this past April about NoFap and I found a place where i could go and share experiences without fear. I'm off Twitter and away from this babe and fapping is no longer an issue, but I have to watch myself everyday. I DO NOT go near tube sites and focus on more important things. I've done extensive research into the porn biz and discovered how screwed up it is. I recommend reading Jenna Jameson's biography to anyone who wants to see how fucked up the porn biz really is. It destroys lives everyday.

 

The "addiction" takes you to a universe of perversion that really, really has no limitations, none. I became addicted to the site "Pornwikileaks" where porn models would have their names, social media, etc, outed. I mean you think I got turned on by watching porn? That was nothing compared to be able to actually go on porn models private Facebook accounts and see them through a normal perspective. Most of these girls would "private" their accounts after they became aware they had been outed. My larger point being, there is no end game with porn as an "addiction". It will take you in circles, left, right, back, front. You will never get enough, never. There will never be a point where you tell yourself, well, I think that's enough porn for a month, year, a lifetime. For me, and I'm guessing for most "addicts" it's either you make an effort to stop and get it out of your life, or float around aimlessly for years with porn addiction .

 

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I couldn't agree with you more. That's how I got hooked on my "porn crush" Once I found out her real name, and where she was from all I had to do was Google her name and the info gate was opened. This girl has 3 Twitter accounts, a Facebook page, an Instagram page in her porn name, a Facebook page in her real name, going back to when she was in high school. She has porn "friends" on the Facebook page that's in her real name and gives their real names, I'm sure if these "porn friends" knew she was "outing" them on Facebook they wouldn't be too thrilled. It's like from early on she had an insatiable need for attention. For someone who's supposed to be so smart and talented, I think if brains were dynamite, she wouldn't have enough to blow her nose. I also think that when she uses her Twitter page to Tweet about the gym she uses, and the hairdresser she goes to, maybe these people may not want that kind of publicity. My point is, I'm sure I'm not the only person that figured this out. Also, as I agree with what you've said about "no end game", not just directed at us, but also for them as well, which in their case is more like a "vicious circle." One minute a super star, the next hustling Snaps, and working as a Vegas hooker. Of course, it could all be part of "just another hustle." For people who seem to spend a lot of time trying to "validate" their career choice, they seem to have a real need to appear like the rest of us. I also wonder if there might be some porn people who are aware of our forums, and come here and check out what we discuss? Maybe they see how we think of them as the POS they are?

 

I can identify with the idea of being fixated on specific people in the industry, I have 3 names of pornstars stuck in my head and I basically only masturbate to 2 of those. They both had major surgery to certain parts of their bodies and it is really destroying my sense of reality. I also engage in what I used to think was "mild" porn, cartoon porn. Now I realize it is just another novelty and level of fantasy and unreality.

 

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I hear what you're saying. My second step after I found NoFap was to deactivate my Twitter account. Never liked Facebook or the others because I'm an older guy and all this need to be constantly recognized and relevant does nothing for me. NoFap mostly and the subReddit have been very very helpful for me. Like my AA business, I'm taking this one day at a time. I do know this, it was a lot easier back in the "old days" when nobody cared what their real names were, etc. These people put on a really big show about the way they live, they have the same problems we all do, bills, taxes, relationship issues, etc. This girl Tweeted about how her Mercedes-Benz dealer in Scottsdale "lost" her car for 2 days when she brought it in for new tires at $700. She felt they should give her the tires for free because they fucked up. On what planet is she living on?? I guess there are still some things that a BJ can't solve. I'm sure she's leasing the MB and some guy actually offered to give her $100 towards the new tires. What an asshole. Don't these guys realize she's driving a Benz on their money and what she makes as a hooker? That's when I finally DUMPED Twitter.
Being part of NoFap, and reading the comments from others has been a revelation for me.

 

exactly me story. Frequency of my fapping is not the problem but stupid fetish porn is, I wish it was never invented.

 

@JustinX Keep at it and focus on the positive. The people that produce porn are very aware to the "needs" of their "customers." There's a lot of really "unusual" stuff out there and some beyond the pale. I think in the end what got to me was the money aspect. When I started to read about how these people are paid, and how they are nothing more than "contract workers" and are responsible for all their expenses, etc. Also how once they are paid for their "performance" it's over. Not like the actor on "Law and Order" who still gets a residual check every 3 months for an episode he/she did in 1994. That's why these babes rely on dancing, camming, phoning, and last but not least simple prostitution (escorting). and of course if they're lucky a "sugar daddy." Let's not forget Snapchats and the ever present Wish List and the other hustles. You may fantasize over one of these babes, but no matter how sweet and innocent they may have been in the beginning after a couple of years, they are just cold-hearted hustlers. They put on a big show, but in the end, most are pretty pathetic no matter how much "bling" they seem to have. That to me was the final straw.....the bullshit.