Noticing Changes in Motivation

So I've been having a lot of resets/relapses lately and in that time I've had a lot of trouble finding motivation to do things, and this includes simple tasks as well. When I go on a binge or have a week where I watch P or its subs daily I just feel less motivated overall; simple tasks seem larger than what they really are. I'm closing in on my seventh day of completed abstaining and I'm feeling more balanced. I've been facing a lot of urges this past week, but I know the first week is always the hardest week. I've just been telling myself that I've made the decision to reach the 7 days for now and that I can not make a decision as I'm going up this hill. The changes I'm already starting to notice are an extra boost of motivation for me to continue. If you're lacking motivation to restart try to live in the present moment as possible (don't let your mind drift to the past of using P). Like I had mentioned earlier, start out small with your goals; on day one I just wanted to make it 24hrs. After that I made another 24 hour goal and then a week target. Lastly, realize that if you choose to abstain now for that target goal don't make any decisions regarding making it or not as you're working towards that goal. You're mind may offer you alternatives but just remind yourself that the decision was already made and what matters is the goal you already set out for yourself. Best of luck to all of you!

 

Thanks for the support guys! @iHappy I totally agree. Feeling good won't be a constant, but I know from experience that the quality of life goes up as the times you turn to PMO go down.