AM I a Pedo?

I agree with the people that say it's an side effect of PMO, you relapsed, and sometimes relapses can lead to stronger or more frequent PMO, because your adict mind is feeling worse from all your restraint. I recomend getting an AP you can talk to when you feel like relapsing again, talk about your desire to watch underage pictures. It's a good that you realize that it is bad to sexualize minors

 

Goes without saying I am referring to those that have practice the activity and have had to answer to the courts.

 

@IGY I would like to say though that even clicking on a CP link can get you imprisoned if the gov know you belonged to the IP address that clicked it, and if you download such material there's no way out of a prison sentence. In the eyes of the law if you just watch it online you will still be sentenced as a sex offender.
They monitor CP links and sites like the plague.
We shouldn't make OP feel like it's just another PMO induced fetish. It's a more fundamental issue than pmo. We should stress that OP should avoid CP at all costs.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Legal_status_of_Internet_pornography

"In 2008, it was discovered that the United States authorities will post fake hyperlinks claiming to be child pornography and then raiding, arresting, and prosecuting anyone who was found using the IP address that visited them, even someone whose computer was an open wifi."

 

Don't worry about it I've had the same thoughts and when the other porn just isn't enough it can be hard not to search further extreme in that case that catagory. It's extreme taboo and I believe like other porn you would if you did watch it a lot get bored so you are not a pedo it is just you're brain trying to get a rush of bad dopamine and adrenaline as it's illegal which makes it exciting in a case.

 

I agree with the other posts. You're not. It's just a matter of your brain asking for more and more extreme ways of arousal since you are so accustomed to the regular stuff. Same thing happened to me until I had my mental reboot. My porn choices were getting more and more extreme. I was looking for a fix but as time passed on and I hit my first mental reboot my thought's and what I liked. It might take longer than a regular reboot. Go for 90 Days which is my new goal and it should help you diminish those extreme porn choices.

 

You're not a pedo but you're on the path if you don't knock it off. Each time it will only become easier with the ever increasing risk that it becomes normal to seek it out. A few years ago a guy that was known by a family member was arrested and sentenced to life in prison over cp. No one suspected. I don't know the details except that he spent time in online cp rings and went to a relative's house for it. Unlike the subway guy who actually did act on his desires with girls, he didn't have millions of dollars to throw toward getting his sentence reduced. Don't download anything. Don't look at anything intentionally. Don't seek it out. This thing does not exist to you.

Just know that like with pmo, you're not the only one with this problem. There are people who look for these things and feel guilty about it, but feel that they can't tell anyone. There's a website for that.
http://www.stopitnow.org/help-guidance/online-help-center
If you feel you might get something out of it.

 

I wouldn't torture myself with this one. It's normal to be attracted to teenage girls. At age 15 they are already developed and are able to give birth. You responded like a regular man. Here in Europe the age of consent is mostly 14 or 15 years, so it's not even illegal. But it's just weird to chase them or to have sex with them, unless you are a teenager too. So just don't stare at them too much and don't touch them nor touch yourself and you'll be fine. There is really no need to torture yourself.

On topic... no you are not pedo. Sometimes I relapse and do crossdress and masturbate my ass, and I'm not attracted to men, nor want to become woman. It's just that sexual thrill of doing something taboo that feeds my brain with dopamine. I remember when I saw transwomen first time I was disgusted and then as my addiction advanced I began to seek it. Same with animal porn. I guess I was only lucky it hasn't escalated to pedo stuff yet.

 

Though your message is somewhat correct. This part isn't.
Its legal to have sex with someone who is of consenting age ONLY if they actually consent. Also in the UK the age of consent is 16+, Europe is mostly the same age...BUT pornography is only legal if all participants are 18+ and consent to it.

Any pornographic image or video with a girl or boy younger than 18 years old is illegal to create and illegal to watch (internationally)

 

I thought any sexual act that is happening without consent is considered to be sexual assault or rape No matter age...
But I agree with you. I just wanted to say 2 things:
1. there is no reason to punish yourself for being attracted to teenage girls since their bodies do posses all the physical things as mature women do.
2. it should stay taboo anyways. Just like incest.

 

Ye but the thing is, OP hasnt said what age the participants looked like.
Everyone here is assuming 15/16year olds. It could easily be the lesser spectrum. There's a far too soft tone to this thread. We need to try help OP curb this interest not reassure OP that it's a byproduct of too much P. It's not a regular thing even for a PMO addict, I've been PMO addict for 13 years, all the time I have gone from genre to genre, but not once has any level of CP crossed my mind, and in all the websites I've hopped on from easily 100s of thousands of search terms have I never come across CP, which is worrying how OP found it so easily. OP needs professional counseling, confidential and non judgemental to determine his thread title reliably.

 

Would appreciate it if you didn't put the name of a website (especially with extreme content in it) on NoFap. I'm glad you realized what you watched was wrong and I hope you get the help you need to overcome this addiction.

One of the scariest realities of porn use is the fact that after a while, “regular” porn just doesn’t do it for the viewer anymore.

 

Indeed, that particular website is notorious.

 

Thanks MEGAFOK. Yes pornography is a slippery slope and our tastes degenerate the more we indulge in it, leading to sicker and sicker material. Mine has to do with c**shots and t**jobs, and I relapsed yesterday.

I sensed a lot of negativity from the girls' families and it just seemed irresponsible on my part to want to actually date those girls. But I wanted them to feel good about themselves, and it occurred to me that having an older guy ask them out would really bolster their self-esteem. I guess I was planning for it to fail too. What happened was, after I asked the first girl out, I quit my job so I wouldn't see her any more and she ended up blocking me on Facebook. I wrote her so many letters and felt that she was my "muse" of sorts. Beautiful, intelligent, diligent and friendly, she's got everything going for her and I notice that she has a b/f now. Well, good for her. She deserves it.

I haven't been able to follow things up with the second girl, whom I noticed at the supermarket I was working at. The story started like this: I noticed her one day at work and I thought, "My gosh, she's got pretty eyes." Then one day she was sitting next to me at the staff lunchroom table and I noticed she kept glancing my way and sighing like she really wanted me to talk to her. From then on, whenever I made attempts to talk to her, she'd give me this beautiful winsome smile that I still remember to this day. I think she'd got a b/f too now, and it does make me a bit jealous because I wanted to be her only one.

Still, love is unpredictable and you can learn a lot about yourself by meeting anyone of the opposite sex (of any age) while keeping your chastity in mind and following your intuition. I just hope I meet a nice woman one day, but I'm not in any hurry any more.

 

Exactly, and I'm sure that he had no intentions of doing that but the least he can do is give out a trigger warning. Actually just don't mention the name of a porn site especially when it comes to CP.

 

Hi, thanks for positive words in my log there. I'm from one of those small european countries you never hear too much about It's not Greece, but I like ancient history of Greece and Rome. I think it's very inspiring part of human history.

Yeah, now I understand you, it was very foolish with those girls, specially with the first one. I think you crossed the border but haven't done nor intended any harm, which is good. I would take it as a big lesson. Females that are too young, your relatives or married are taboo for a reason.