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What happened to make you realize you needed help?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by faithfulfool, Jul 16, 2016.

  1. Rommel1

    Rommel1 Fapstronaut

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    Just when you think deeper about what are you doing.
    Now I am here alone in this room,with my phone/PC searching 1 hour for video of 2 people being payed(some maybe forced) to enjoy in each other while they are recorded for 30-40 mins so I can enjoy 5 seconds that I will regret.Just think about it:2 people that never talked to each other,probably never saw each other will do anything what producer wants for some money.Thats just weird,how I can enjoy that.
     
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  2. Mackswell Hope

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    Most significant to me is that you have noticed that his behaviour toward your daughter changed. People who don't know all the ins and outs of your situation may pass comment. One might make general observations, debating aspects of the issue. The bottom line is this: you noticed something was wrong. And now you have noticed an improvement. Whatever the arguments are in the debate, one cannot debate these specifics as they apply to you.
     
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  4. zip6331

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    This may sound totally off the wall but here goes. I've watched porn going back to when Playboy first came out, a very long time ago. Before that I could conjure up fantasies in my mind as far back as 8th grade. Now to the present. When the internet came on and porn was available it was like a buffet, and then about 2 years or so, I found my porn crush and I was done. She captured me and I couldn't stop, I wanted to know everything and with Google and a little persistence, along with her very open narrative I felt like we were really friends. Even after a medical issue put fapping on the back burner, I still was enchanted and obsessed. I'll skip the who, what, when, where, and how, but I was always fascinated over her love for her little dog and a horse she owned at the time, and her involvement in animal rights, etc. Despite the fact circumstances had put her on a harder earning path, I sent her a $50 AGC and asked that she donate the amount to an animal shelter in her area, she had supposedly done this with others. I didn't want anything other than a Tweeted thank you. The card was received and opened but no thank you, just a snotty Tweet about "how isn't it a bitch when people don't do what you ask them to do." After almost 3 years I was really PO'd and about that time I read the article in TIME about NoFap and the subreddit, it was an eye opener. Almost instantly, I went on NoFap and was so grateful that I could express myself and read about others as well. I deactivated Twitter, and although there have been a few temptations to checkout some sites, I simply sign on to NoFap and read and calm down. It was like a light when on in my mind. Thanks
     
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  5. zip6331

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    You just answered a question in a matter of two minutes that it takes some people years to figure out. Now, what are you going to do about it?
     
  6. Rommel1

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    I think we all know that,just we don't want to think about.I regret so much that day when I started watching P.6 years ago,and just can't stop.I am trying everything to fight back,but its hard.It just attacks me randomly,and my body suddenly takes control over me,and I become "slave" of my own body.It's like I am animal.But I don't know am I addicted because I watch it once weekly,but even that is too much.
     
  7. Lone_Wolf

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    For me it was getting fed up with the lack of confidence I have in life. Sitting at home and masturbating to crazy fantasies in my head, fueled by porn images, is no way to build confidence in oneself.
    Additionally, it keeps taking more intense pornography to reach highs I previously reached.
    It's a fool's game.
     
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  8. zip6331

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    @Rommel1 @Lone_Wolf I hear both of you loud and clear. As I've said many times, it was easier for me anyway back in the day when you didn't actually know their names. For me social media was my downfall big time. It just wasn't "fapping" it was like I knew these "perfs" and some were so adept at creating these narratives to sucker you in. Without too much detail, I came to realize that some of these people really are pathetic, they put on a really big show about this glamourous life they lead with all the "bling" and such but they know their lives are nothing. Guess what, that's not our problem. Our challenge is to avoid them, avoid what they sell, and reclaim our lives. It's a tough assignment and together we can do it. I took my granddaughter to the DMV today to get her driver's license, she had a really tough inspector and passed with flying colors!!! That means more to me right now than where some "porn perf" had lunch, or that her Mercedes-Benz needed new tires, (of course a few Amazon Gift Cards would help, guys) Hey sweetie, to use "urban shorthand", KMAYOYO!!
     
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  9. Rommel1

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    I think I started watching P regularly after I found out categories and P-star names.
     
  10. zip6331

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    Yeah, you're right. I'll bet everyone in their hometown knows their name as well, and it must be fun when their parents, sisters and brothers go to the store to buy stuff. I'm not being mean, I'm just saying that when you think about things like this this, you have to be glad you're not them. Works for me!!
     
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  11. Rommel1

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    Yeah,we should be glad we don't have them in our family.Thanks for cheering me up :)
     
  12. Sojourner

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    Rock bottom? Getting told to 'get out' and have to leave my kids behind. Nearly killed me. 'Phase' is just ridiculous. I knew I had a problem when I was going thru a dumpster in a thunderstorm at night looking for porn I had thrown out a few hours before. Racing thru the Sunday paper to scoop up the lingerie ads for use later. Yep, that's a problem. Going thru tons of ink cartridges due to printing off page after page of stills. That's a problem. Being alone is frightening because it's an all out struggle to not look for and watch porn. That's a problem. BTW, isolation and secrecy are at the heart of any addiction. Been there, done that. Hope that helped.
     
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  13. Lone_Wolf

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    It's breathtaking to what extent an addiction will take us, isn't it?
     
  14. Sojourner

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    It's insidious. And nobody ever starts out with a clue of what wild turns they'll experience
     
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  15. zip6331

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    It's great to know that places like this exist. I know this may sound really dumb, but I even bought the Tshirt today.
     
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  16. Ekhangel

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    Cool. Now be a badass and walk around the town in it.
     
  17. zip6331

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    ^
    Just came in the mail today, really fast delivery. Wearing it tomorrow when I go on my trail ride.
     

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