Almost 80 days porn free

It is now almost 80 days of being porn free. Today is day 78..

▪ I have relapsed into MO 5 times
Times during the last 78 days which means.. I have been 94% MO free, in my streak so far.

I have kept track of my progress...its actually been 125 days that i have been keeping track of things on my calender in total. But 78 days is my new streak.

▪I relapsed in porn.....5 times in the last 125 days.. that is 96 % porn free.
▪And relapsed into MO 13 times in the last 125 days.... 89% MO free

I feel like that's a big improvement since before I would PMO everyday for hrs. I think when I hit my goal of 90 days. I want to try even more harder to stay MO free. My goal was to go hard mode but that didn't work so well..so this next upcoming 90 days will be even better!

I don't think I will ever go back watching porn videos ever!
So thats a new accomplishment...
Just gotta get rid of p-subs

 

▪Being Productive. Not missing work, or choosing pmo over things i need to be doing/family.

▪ sleep. Not staying up all night doing pmo.

▪confidence. Knowing i am working hard at a goal and achieving it. Feeling better about myself

There are more things but u said give 3 haha

 

Congratulations, @Kristen. This is a tremendous accomplishment that cannot be understated. I appreciate @ukkometso420's statement. Regardless of what relapses or resets you've experienced, you've made excellent progress in your recovery and are light years ahead of where you began. You provide a solid example of how our lives can improve by eliminating this monster. Getting rid of psubs is a great next step. I can't willingly view psubs without falling back into porn, and I doubt I ever will. It's a dangerous fire to play with and will only burn you, so I'm happy to see you recognize it as an issue. Keep up the good work!

 

During these days i probably looked at p-subs maybe 3, 4 times...
But i just want it gone completely...
I dont wanna play with fire..lol

 

I think...just anytime im alone for a long period of time. I start getting sad and lonely...or bored and then pmo is my go to.
So just keep busy? Thats my tactic.

 

Lol k haha, here is 4 more....

▪ Gaining Self Respect. I don't want to give myself to just anyone anymore? So I have stopped being a cam girl, and having unsafe sex with strangers which were all due to my pmo addiction in wanting to act porn out.

▪ No PMO related injuries? Maybe its just me but I injure myself alot doing pmo....to the point that im bleeding...I know guys have told me before they get sore and raw from pmo.

▪ Good Conscience before God. I am a spiritual person and porn and MO, is not encouraged in my religion. So I feel better and can live with myself knowing I'm doing the right thing in gods eyes.

▪ I am really Living now. When u spend excessive time doing pmo, there is no time to live...for me Id start in the morning and by the time I finish everyone is asleep and so I cant do anything. You experience more when your there mentally. And you're not fully there during pmo.


I just need to keep busy no matter what and just pray when an urge comes on...Im still working on an action plan. Usually i can stay pretty busy.

 

What do u need these points? Just to help u out? Or are u writing something..lol

 

▪save money on laundry. Lol
▪ save money, cause I'm not going $600.00 over my internet data limit.
▪ Save time
▪ Im able to keep a job, before I kept getting fired or losing jobs for coming in late to work or not showing up because of PMO.
▪ Living a healthier life. I am not missing meals or sleep because of pmo
▪Less Anxiety. Idk about anyone else..but I get sooo anxious worrying someone will find out about my pmo addiction through my search history or phone bills.
▪ keeps away from depression. I get really depressed and sad and even suicidal because of pmo. It really makes me feel like crap..lol
▪ Feeling Satisfied. Im always happy and proud of myself when i can reach a goal. And being free of pmo is a big goal.

Lol just felt like writing more reasons haha. Im tired, I should sleep..lol....byeee