Hope to start tomorrow

I agree, I figured I could enjoy it once and a while

 

The days winding down NoFap which is good , I sat in for the manager at work today, now that was an adventure , relaxing now , I may go to the local German festival tomorrow, big event all weekend . I'm sure there is German nofappers here . But for now Auf wiedersehen

 

Today I rolled out early no time to think about rubbing one out so....good.....there is some good in staying busy I worked a Saturday haven't in a while , I wonder to myself if I can leave the masturbation habit behind , the daily habit, the morning habit , the foul habit , the habit that's been my crutch all these years . I know I engage , I just wonder who else does ? Did they grow out of it , do they secretly enjoy it ?

 

Tonight went to the German fest ! Alone ! Muddy field for parking don't fucking care tore it up with my new Jeep , Zac brown is my buddy , luv his music and he's a really handsome bear that can sing. I just luv beards and boy are they popular with the young guys , where u guys when I was younger? Oh not born yet lol its all good ! Keep growing the fur guys ! We will prevail !

 

Still NoFap!

 

Strange urge now to masturbate, need to resist woah 8:30 now i'm good

 

Experienced two orgasms last two mornings , still no porn , but none the less you get it. Urges, I'll keep trying. I justify the need for the feeling , and it does feel good at the time , but later not so good , then I get over it . It's a good day hope yours is good too - J

 

Three days in a row now , mornings I'm coaxing my self into an erection and masturbation , i have to stop this . i was so successful making 20 days before, almost half July and Aug. Feeling low self esteem plus i almost got into a bar fight tonight . Is it the testosterone messing with me ? I'm not like this . I do have my buttons people push . Please brain Let me roll out tomorrow clean ?

 

4 days now falling . From sleep I awoke with huge boner at 5 in the morning today, lol , totally not my initiative this time, it's nature, I mean pulsing, balls stirring , wtf , I'm trying to stop and my body's fighting me . Guys , I had to take care of it . Triggers alert : I warmed up the fleshlite sleeve wrapped it in a towel and just in the dark hands free had one great orgasm after ten solid minutes of grinding into it. I hope this does me for a while . Apologies if this triggers ,duty I have to tell , is it failing or enjoying my body? I'm not using any porn these days ... let's see what happens this weekend .

 

Thanks

 

Success today ! The urge is so strong for me in the morning , warm bed . God gave us just the right amount of length on our arms to reach our junk . Oh my why ? Rolled out anyway no edging so hope to make it thru the weekend . Everyone have a good holiday weekend.

 

Not posted entire weekend due to the fact ive been having sex all weekend , not proud either , something I relapsed into .Don't know what else to type .

 

When I wanna do good , what is bad is always with me , miserable man that I am. - Paul

 

I haven't posted in a few days , I rolled out without M&O past few days , I been having sex though all past weekend, I wish I could squelch the need .

 

Same thing as last post ,no progress , still sexually active