1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

35 Year Old want to start dating but I'm a sexually dysfunctional porn addict

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by UpRolling, Sep 8, 2016.

  1. UpRolling

    UpRolling New Fapstronaut

    2
    4
    3
    Wow, I'm glad I found this community.

    My story:

    I'm 35 year old. I'm a porn addict since puberty I think. I have only had dating/sexual relationships for about a year around 2008. None before or since. I have had PIED for a long time and it was definitely an issue in 2008 though I just thought it was more due to anxiety because of my sexual inexperience.

    My porn addiction was probably at its worst from around 2005 to 2011 since I think I suffered from depression and self-medicated using porn. From 2011 to now feels like a long slow climb out of depression towards happiness but my porn addiction continues just to a slightly lesser degree I think.

    I just learned today here on this site about PIED and I think it explains alot. I thought my ED was caused by me being obese, out of shape and anxious. But in the past 12 months, I stopped smoking, lost a lot of weight, my BMI went from Obese class II to Normal, I'm now running over 7km three times a week and doing weight training. Now I think getting into shape has improved the ED situation. I now get morning wood that won't quit occasionaly and, before losing the weight, that didn't happen any more.

    So I'm now finally at a point where I'm thinking about dating again. I feel the physical fitness has given me more confidence and attractiveness. On the other hand, I'm realizing that I'm also still totally sexually dysfunctional. I've been reading about rebooting and that is what I need to do. I'm already grateful that I found other people here experiencing the same problems I have.

    I have tried stopping using porn in the past. About 10 years ago, I frequented a forum dedicated to stopping masturbating. I recognized then I had a serious problem. (I remember being prescribed a cream for skin lesions on my penis due to excessive masturbation.) I don't remember the name of that forum but most people 90%+ were very religious. I probably stopped porn for about a month back then. Since then I have stopped between one to two weeks several times. It's only here today that I learned that it will probably take me 3 months or more to regain a normal sexual response.
    I have felt "The Surge" several times. In retrospect, I see that I have flatlined after that in the past.

    So this is Day 1 of NoFap.

    I haven't even figured out exactly what I want to do as far as the precise restrictions I'm imposing on myself. In the past, I always thought that masturbation without porn was ok but now I think maybe my path to recovery might be "Hard Mode"...

    Wow... these are things I have never discussed in real life and never online for 10 years now!
     
    xedger, DBug and Lone_Wolf like this.
  2. Morning Uprolling. I liked your story, and see a lot of parallels with my own (just posted my own intro this morning too). I got divorced over 2 years ago, and struggled with some pretty low times. In hindsight, I have "consoled" myself with Porn & Masturbation. I started dating again and found that for the first time in my life I experienced ED. I am 41, and I was dating a beautiful 26 year old girl, and I couldn't believe it. Of course then I realised I was getting more anxious about it... Ultimately I saw this website and everything resonated. The physical and physiological implications were really clear. I took up the challenge and got through 2.5 weeks with no-PMO, but failed this week with the "M&O" part.... It was like I was obsessing about it.... Really tough....

    So I have re-started and Day 1 for me is today also..... I hope this helps, but seems there is a really good community here to help us.....
     
  3. mike lowry

    mike lowry Fapstronaut

    52
    19
    8
    Good luck to both of you guys, be prepared for it to be sometimes harder than you expect. Flatline can be really really hard to cope with, so be strong. I recommend using porn blockers on your computers, helped me a lot.
     
    Deleted Account likes this.
  4. GnosisToday

    GnosisToday Fapstronaut

    47
    59
    18
    Welcome to both of you. UpRolling remember how far you already have come. Always be proud of yourself for taking this step and what you already accomplished!!! I mean it. If you're frustrated or feeling down, feel proud of yourself!
     
    Deleted Account likes this.

Share This Page