A little of my story

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Gwyn, Sep 8, 2016.

  1. Gwyn

    Gwyn Fapstronaut

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    Hello, im 22 years old and i've been dealing with porn since i was about 14 years old, i have really tried to stop for countless times but always found my way to it again and everytime i feel helpless and like a failure to myself for not being strong enough, last year in november i had a change in my perspective of life i guess we could call it an awakening in consciousness and well that has helped me a lot in working and loving myself and seeing everything and everyone as one and seeing every experience as something to teach us, i was able to stop watching porn and just masturbating like once every 3 weeks or so and when i did i wouldnt picture any obsenity in my mind but for the past few days i've been very vulnerable, social media apps dont help at all, any little sexual post can trigger you and that's it for you and well its what happened to me recently i couldnt help but watch again and start that horrible cycle once more, its been 2 days but i feel like i dont want it to go any further, i even managed to talk about it with a friend which is something i really felt was necessary and thankfully my friend was very supportive, more than i would've expected, its incredible how a person can change in 1 day, i was in a really dark place yesterday and the day before, i feel like i wasted those 2 days of my life conpletely but today i feel ready to start again fighting for myself and i was watching a TedX video about porn and they mentioned this website so i hope i can find some like minded people and hopefully help each other and who knows maybe even form a friendship, thank you!
     
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  2. GnosisToday

    GnosisToday Fapstronaut

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    Yes, you will find many like-minded people here and I think you're wise to join here. However I don't think you need to 'fight' this. I think the idea of struggle is wrong, it takes time to overcome this, it's more like healing a broken heart! It will take time and it won't be easy but it'll be worth it! Eyes on the prize, my friend!
     
  3. Gwyn

    Gwyn Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your kind words, sometimes i have thought that just supressing the feeling and the urge will help and time will heal but then i think that if i just keep supressing my feelings its like filling up a cup of water and then at some point it the water will start pouring out because our bodies are the ones that suffer the comsequences, i feel like for me talking about it even with myself helped because you let everything out so i find this website to be very helpful because nobody needs to feel ashamed here since its a common topic to talk about:)
     

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