15 M - Joining the battle

My name is Matthew and I'm fifteen years old. I've been exposed to the horrors of the pornography industry since I was in the fourth grade. Until just a few months ago, I've been letting porn & masturbation win the battle because I did not fight back. This all changes right now. Today was one of my worst days in months - I jerked off to porn and masturbated for 7 hours straight. This addiction has caused me to be less productive, espicially in school, which has inturn caused my grades to drop. I have social anxiety and can't stare at attractive girls my age directly in the eyes. I get butterflies in my stomach and I start to move around when speaking to an attractive girl. I have a wonderful family, but I have been keeping this a secret from them for years now. I want to spend time with my brother and parents watching a nice family movie... not jerking off in front of a damn computer screen for hours on end. What's that get you in life? Nothing.

Today my fellow nofap army, I have officially enlisted and I am ready to fight the fight that I have let destroy my childhood up until now. Will you join me on the battlefield?

 

Hey Matthew! Welcome.

Yes, we are in a gruelling battle for freedom from masturbation and pornography. Seven hours isn't a record I don't think, but it is a hell of a long time! There is no doubt that it warps our true selves and inhibits how we interact with others.

Countries have different grade systems, so how old were you when you started watching other people having sex etc?

 

Hey Igy, thanks for the warm welcome. I'd say I was around 9 years of age when I first started watching :/