Day 62 and back from travelling

So you might remember my last post from 30 days and how I had my heartbroken a month ago in Budapest. Fast forward a month or so and I've travelled around Hong Kong, China and Dubai. I just got home last night and I'm still in a period of adjustment in many different ways. And I'm not just talking about the 7 hour time difference either.

Travelling around Mainland China I got up to things like seeing the Bund in Shanghai, to climbing the Great Wall in Beijing, eating hotpot in Xi'an, meeting pandas in Chengdu and sailing on a bamboo raft in Guilin. Despite this, I fell ill three times in China and had everything thrown at me: missed a train from Shanghai to Beijing, nearly missed my flight from Chengdu to Guilin, had a broken suitcase, nearly got scammed and nearly got thrown out of a casino in Macau.

All this helped me develop a skin as thick as a rhino. Why? Because China is a culture and a people that won't change. You have to adapt and face challenges in a country that's communist, blocks social media and many other English websites from outside China, where English is not widely spoken and inevitably falling ill. Or at least that's what happened to me. My mentor told me before heading out that I would need a spine of titanium and that I'd be going into the belly of the beast. For all my preparation, nothing could get me ready for this trip.

But with continuing this streak and travelling, it has helped me see the world with a fresher perspective and process emotions I've not felt about anyone or myself for a long, long time. There were times in Dubai where I felt very weak with the amount of women from different nationalities that were shall we say, pretty shapely. As opposed to Chinese girls being quite thin and pale.

Though I digress - I feel stronger, I'm operating on a high level vibration of consciousness and I feel like I can travel anywhere or do anything I want. As far as I'm concerned, a girl or a relationship is the icing on the cake, just something to make life taste much sweeter. But I won't lie - for some time now I've been travelling on my own for the most part, but now I want a special someone to share it with. Saying that, I'm willing and hoping for that special, special girl. I don't quite feel like I've fully rebooted 100% yet, as there are a couple of issues that need addressing, but I'm closer now than I was a year ago. I wasn't meant to be kept in one place my entire life! After all, a bird was never meant to be caged..

But right now for me, the sky is the limit!

 

Thanks. My next trip is to Oslo, Norway for several days in early November. After that, maybe Beirut in December.

 

Thanks mate. What I will also say is that temptation is never too far away now that I'm back in comfortable surroundings, so I need to keep my guard up at all times. Fortunately I have a lot of work to do which is keeping me occupied. Trouble is, my brain will try to find any excuse to look at P and try to rationalize or justify it in some way. Last night I peeked at one image of a Brazilian model and I had the shakes for about half an hour. In one sense it shows I've made tremendous progress in that my body thinks a relatively soft core image is a big deal, but on another I'm still getting strong urges. But I guess I'm biologically wired as a man to be like this. Onwards and upwards friends..

 

Thanks a lot. 90 days is so so close. I can also feel like I can see the finishing line. But to me completing 90 is just the very beginning.