Felt like a damn man!

After another successful 30 days and only giving into m twice. And p once, I seriously consider that a success story. Considering I once couldn't even go a full day without multiple times. Anyways about last Thursday for the first time since I was about 18... I'm 25 now, I felt like a damn man. Over a long period of time I have felt unmasculine and couldn't control situations like a man would. But after abstaining and working out and taking better care of myself I got that vigor back. I got that inner desire and passion. In was absolutely fan freaking tastic. I felt alive! I felt in control to any situation at hand and others could tell. My thoughts were positive and I didn't mind sharing them and conversation with others. It was the most satisfying day of my life in a really long time. I really wish I had known how badly on was effecting me long ago. But now that I do my whole world is opening up. It's hard to understand until you have been addicted to p before and have come out of it. I am finally seeing my old self again, that mans man version of myself.... I love that guy! Missed being me but I'm reconnecting again

 

Yeah man, I'm the same exact way. For a long time I felt like I was pretending to be my old self and now I just am. If that makes any sense, I just am myself. I don't have to compensate for my secret or put on a fake attitude.