What is your why?

Lately i think i've been selfish with my reasons to improve my life but i just dont want to go back to where i was, sleeping all day, videogames, netflix, pmo, weed, today i think of it and it was a really depressing time of my life (hell, even speaking about it -writing is easier, less tears- it's hard for me)... today my why is because i know i can be different, not different like a super hero or a multimillionaire, just different like happier, more conscious, more active, more social, more connected to the world and myself

 

My "Why" is on a spiritual level ... I am not wasting my seed for no reason knowing that holding in your seed has so many benefits in life, whether it be for Mind,Body, and Soul . I also made a promise to myself and to the most high . I know this will build up discipline... I don't intend on breaking any promises .

 

My why is to relate in a better way with girls, don't treat them as objects and build relationship with my ideal girl... in the second I have the goal to eliminate porn... and third to save my energy for sport competitions...

 

There are my why's:

- To gain control over compulsive behaviours and break any addictive tendencies. My behaviours are not extreme, but they still are related to that seeking to fill personal voids.
- To increase personal self-worth, confidence, and vital energy to envision and create the life I want.
- To gain a new perspective on personal values and codes of conduct that may serve others beyond just myself.

 

My why's:
- improve my self esteem and feel energetic
- not be distracted from my goals
- being less impulsive and more responsible in my actions

 

I'm doing nofap first and foremost because it does not align with the ideal person I would like to be. For example, looking from a different perspective, I try to Imagine having a son and what kind of man I would want him to grow up to be. Would I want my son to get caught up in porn? Wasting his time and energy, Staying isolated from the world and living for selfish pleasures? Absolutely not. What a waste of a life that would be.When I view this problem from a different angle it is so crystal clear to me that porn addiction or any addiction for that matter is such a loss for a person's true joy in this life. If you wouldn't want a love one participating in an act of empty pleasure and perversion why would you ever decide to go down that road?

 

I just stumbled onto a couple days of not pmo'ing. Then went a few more and now I'm finishing out day 11. It's difficult to get a good streak going. Since I haven't been pmo'ing it's gotten easier to not pmo. Although I'm tired and not very energetic. So I haven't really accomplished much of anything else these past few days.

I have a plan for the next day but I get scared to move to much or do to much of anything. Anything and everything can be a trigger. So I don't know. Hopefully I'll clean tomorrow.

Take it easy on yourself

 

I have nothing to look forward to during the day or in my life, so there is no "why" for me in the way you have asked this. But I will not be masturbating to porn because I have decided not to do so. I will simply do what I have decided I will do.