Interested in being part of a podcast on porn addiction with a celebrity writer?

Sorry, I can't.
I like being a ghost.
I've made sure that nobody knows what I look like other than close friends and family. I also don't have social media and would hate if my face got online uncensored. I could never openly talk about my pmo addiction anyway, it's all a weird part of my brain I'm not proud of.
I'm a grey man.

 

Hey , I've sent my story to nofap email, but here's a summary so , I moved from Thailand to Australia around 9 years ago ( I'm 18 Now) . I've had to deal with an abusive father , I suffered from low self esteem as a result and I developed a stuttering problem with my speech . I started watching porn around the age of 10 or 11 yrs old. I found nofap around 3 years ago . It's changed my life in ways that I couldn't have imagined for the better . That's the tiny summary of my story

 

Hey it's koolman I would love to share my story in the podcast. I just need to know the details how will it be carried out by phone,computer and what time these are very important details.

I have been addicted to porn since I was 15 which means I have been addicted for 3 years now.
I began having an interest in sex so I started reading about it. I began watching sex scenes from movies because i was uncomfortable with porn and didn't want it although I knew what it was and seen it before. Later on I get bored of the movie sex scenes cause I saw a lot and they were beginning to not do it for me I didn't masterbate to any at the time. I later found fight the new drug but regardless of me knowing porn wasn't the best thing I still continued to escalate to longer sex scenes from there I saw my first porn video and I thought it was great(turns out it was terrible for me) Still I did not masterbate until I started watching more. Than I would watch porn masterbate then orgasm and then after feeling good temporarily I felt awful after the orgasm. I was starting to struggle more in school. I felt increasingly lazy.I wanted to really quit now but at this point I was pretty much hooked. I would go a week then relapse (this was still in the first year of my addiction)

at the second year I moved to another place no friends new life was even more hooked than before I would go a few days then relapse pretty much throughout my junior year in high school. This is the year where I felt like a major loser. I was highly unmotivated wanted to just stay home play video games all day and not do anything else. I liked girls but I pretty much liked them for sex that's it and I felt I could never be with any cause of how much of a loser I was. Ever since I became addicted to porn my social skills especially with women took a dive downhill. I could not talk to many and when I would I felt terrible at it and shy. I was also increasingly sexually frustrated. I felt a lot less intelligent and couldn't focus well in classes would daze off and my head felt numb. I knew I wasnt as sharp as I could be I knew and I definitely wasn't at my best and I knew what was the problem porn yet I couldn't stop myself. I was unhappy with my life it was this year I found ybr.com. I'm a college freshman now and during this year I joined nofap.

As of now I am 24 days clean which is great but I feel I may still need help so I am sure the podcast will benifit me. Because I feel I may have some issues that I don't know how to resolve I went a month and a have clean after being addicted for two years to softcore vanilla porn and still relapsed. I want to know why I relapse after all that.

my addiction Is unique because I haven't really escalated passed vanilla softcore porn girl and guy since the start of my addiction even now.

 

I tried to private message @matthewmammothrept, but it said it couldn't find that user?

 

Sure, Im interested. Contact me if you want to make this happen. Im young but I have a really atrophied sex life which is not normal for people my age. I experience alot of social anxiety with people of the same sex (I'm queer) and I have this tendency of objectifying people, derived from years of doing just that on a computer screen. I want to change but since I grew up doing it from a very young age, I have really programmed my brain to function that way. I have started rebooting and have made it a month but any step past that mark is prone to relapses. I would love the insight of an expert so if you want me on the podcast, just contact me and we can schedule something.

 

I have joined NOFAP about 5 mins ago and came across this thread.
I really want to seek help from this community because I think I'm the biggest victim ever.
My story goes like this.When I was a kid, my uncle used to live with us and he used to do things with me.I don't remember vividly but it was all bad stuff.I became sexually active at a very early age.Can you believe that I was masterbating even when I was 6?.Ofcourse there was no liquid coming out but that feeling of orgasm was still there.
I was a very bright student in school and that I guess is the only thing that has saved me from the complete ruin yet this addiction had damaged me more than anything would ever do.As I got older I was pleasuring myself with the magazines and imaginary stuff(no nudity).Moreover I did some stuff with girls that were living in the same house and were of my age.Just kisses and all.It's awful.
As I got older and entered teen years I got in touch with porn around when I was 15.It just worsened everything.It became the ultimate pleasure and I got addicted even more.I'm turning 21 this Nov and this addiction from past 6 years have completely ruined me.I have lots and lots of good sides and opportunities but this one things has dragged me so bad.To make it worse, I got bored of usual porn and have gotten addicted to kinky stuff(thanx to websites like that).My frequency ranges from 2 to over 20 times in a day.
I'm not productive at all.There are great strengths in me.I'm just too weak to get over this one.I really really need help.This is day 1.
Thanx

 

am I late to send my story? I just got this post today, I was away for few days

 

So my story began two years ago when i was watching a film and then porn things came on the show so i searched something on the net and firstly i found it interesting (masturbating and porn) and isaid to give it a try - if i would have known that i could go this far , believe me i would not have even tried-so after i did i continued this bad habit thinking it s normal since everywhere on the social you could find the benefits of masturbating and i did not know and think it was a sin . After an year of high masturbating every day once or twice to 10 times a day(really) i started having a lot of bad luck -i mean REAL bad luck such as my father had heath problems and a lot more- and eveytime i was doing it again i was getting right in the next second bad luck. I started to think that God is punishing me for doing it and i stopped for a while and things did got better . I felt really guilty because all of this then searched on Google and noticed that there are cases of bad luck bc of it so i didnt need any more trouble like that. All those things were for me a nightmare and i have never ever been in such a pain and depression . So i went to the church , confessed and i stopped and here i am with almost 60 days of not sinning and things got better hope they are gonna be perfect and i thank God that He forgave me .