New to NoFap

Hi everyone,

I am joining this community as I am really struggling. I have been an addict for about 10 years and it has killed everything good inside me : empathy, patience, goodness, confidence, determination, ambition,... you name it. Porn has made me incredibly lazy, unhealthy, unfocused, all over the place, cold, petulant, intolerant, unbalanced, impatient. There are probably a thousand more things I could add to that list that porn has killed inside me.

It's been two years now that I have been trying to get rid of that addiction, but I haven't succeeded so far. I have to say that I always neglected a huge part of any addiction recovery process, and that is finding an accountability partner. Nobody knows that I am an addict. Not my brother. Not my mother. Not my closest friend. Nobody. I would die of shame if anyone knew it, I am so embarrassed to be an addict.

I found this community and told myself 'this is it'. I hope the NoFap community will help me and make things easier for me as I finally have, for the first time in two years of trying, people to talk to when things get bad, inspire myself with success stories, etc. I know the road is still long, it will be hard, and in no way I'm thinking that NoFap will do the work in my place, but it still feels incredibly good to be part of this community where such positive things are discussed and shared everyday. At some point I really thought I was the only guy in this world who was struggling like hell.

Now let's start some challenges. I am really happy you can't imagine how much.

 

Thank you. You're French speaking ? Je suis Belge !

 

Sure ! Is there a chat on NoFap?

 

Third day! All going good so far, barring the fact that I skipped my morning routine because I forgot to set up my alarm!

I'm expecting a desire to relapse at some point today or tomorrow so I downloaded the emergency app. I made sure I had things to do outside today too so I should be OK, but we all know it can flip upside down in the space of a few seconds. All you need is a quiet place with Wi-Fi so. . . May the force be with us !

Thanks dude! Where can I set up a journal?