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Hello my fellow comrades.This 9 day journey has been wonderful and I've tried to stay more and more active here and that has significantly made me a better person with a reasonable mind that can differentiate between good and bad.I've had more and more control with each day and I've made the biggest streak in last 3 years.I wouldn't let it waste.I don't want myself in those things again for sure but I'm still scared because I've failed again and again before joining this community.
This community has definitely helped me.So I have decided that I will check in here once in two days now.I have fought boredom with watching movie or some TV series or just scrolled Facebook or tried my hands on guitar(I'm a beginner).I'm beginning to have control over myself.I've exams coming up in a month.I hope this stays like this.I'm really very hopeful and positive about it.I wish you all good luck too.

 

I just relapsed. Bloody triggers! I'll avoid them like the plague. Just a peek is my downfall. The good thing is I came to my senses just after MO, and here I am, writing this. I need a real woman, to fall in love and make love to. NoFap is helping me a lot. Before I joined, I never thought it was a problem; I'd relapse and do the same the next day. Now I can spend at least two weeks. Now, I need to break my 19-day-record. Good luck to all.

 

I didn't realized a have PIED until this summer. My penis was so used to my MO (and PMO) that I had to make an effort to keep it up. The last time I tried, I couldn't have sex, but I still could M. Now I notice the erections (when awaking), and they are hard, and I make some exercises from the book "Sexual Healing", by Barbara Keesling, to cure ED. And they are working. I tried them a year ago, but they didn't work perfectly because I was suffering PIED. So, I needed to quit porn first.

 

I am interested in that book as I too suffer from this PIED. During my time with my exgirlfriend things eventually got better after a couple of months together. She knew about me not being so sensitive in this area because of P so she didn't let me finish by my own, but had sex until I O:d, Or I was to be "unsatisfied" if I didn't O through sex. Just before the breakup I O:d after ten or even five minutes. Never ever happened before. The best sex I ever had. So I know it can work. PMO is sooo bad.

Is the book about physical exercises (got some funny pictures in my head) or mental training? Today is my 44th day. NO urges for a couple of days now and I feel strong, and wish this for all of you.
I really am so thankful for the support here and everyone sharing their good and bad experiences.

Edit (@Mlaj I just read about the relapse. You can do it again. Do count that +19 days in your head and it will work out well. Keep strong!

 

"Sexual Healing" has a mix of both. I hasn't got any pictures, though . The one I'm doing for ED is just caressing the base of my penis for ten minutes (at the same time, I'm thinking I'm with a woman). It works!

 

NoFap 30 Day Mark Experience (Long post)
A whole lot has happened prior to these 30 days. It is very difficult to translate it into words but I'll do my best. I'll break my experience down into the things that really stood out the most for me. Here they are:

TRIGGERS
☆What were they and how did I act towards them?
Triggers are everywhere. I mean there's a sexual innuendo of some sort in almost every film, cartoon, TV series or advertisement but for me, triggers came from TV series and music videos. My solution? I stop watching and go do something else instead. I often change the channel quickly or just turn the TV off often in rage because they (society) don't want to see us win...

☆What do I generally think about them thus far?
Well, media and society are very aware of how powerful sexual energy is! We're all familiar with the term "sex sells", well, unfortunately that's very true, but, I want to shed some light on something that I found to be quite disturbing. Remember vanilla porn (softcore). Well, almost 90% of pornsites don't offer that stuff anymore, in fact, the way the sites are set up, they don't even give you an option... it's straight to the hard-core stuff! The softcore stuff is slowly being displaced and reintergrated into commercial media. It's not uncommon to see half naked or even almost-fully-naked women in commercials, series and especially music videos - certain female Hip-hop artists, whom I shall not name (and whom I fapped to many-a-times) exploit this to the greatest possible degree. This commercialized vanilla just lubes you up to go and binge on the hard-core stuff. It's a vicious cycle...

MENTAL STATUS
☆MMA's ( Morning Mental Attack(s) )
Which is just waking up with a dark cloud hovering above you, feeling extremely depressed and unwilling to face the day. I've had nothing of that sort until this point in time. Getting a MMA just screw your ENTIRE day up!

☆Courage to confront thoughts I've been running away from and avoiding (via distractions like PMO)
Ok, so I have been deeply thinking about my ex and our breakup and its causes and I had to consciously reflect back on our relationship and internally take responsibility for how things went (due to my PMO). I'm talking lack of trust, emotional disconnection, feeling insecure when she was around other dudes, not feeling confident or good enough, being unable to make eye contact with her and feeling like our relationship is one bad script that I've written for us both and getting super mad and defensive when she deviates from it (basically... failure to just be authentic). Also to just forgive myself you know . To move forward positively...

PHYSICAL STATUS
☆Weird sensation in penis around 2-week mark.
Ok, so around 14-15 days I have been experiencing a weird sensation in my penis, especially after I pee. It felt as if after the urine, a stream of jizz would soon follow! Thankfully, that was not the case. Also, there was this particular time where I just finished taking a bath and I got that exact same feeling so I decided to firmly hold my (flaccid) penis and squeeze gently and as I did, a clear, thick, jelly-like substance came out. It was not a lot but it had a slippery texture and it felt like really thick semen...

So there you go, that has been my experience thus far. It was really tough to put it in words but I hope it helps someone

 

You're on an incredible journey.Really delighted to know you've made it to a month.It gives me strength too.

 

76 day.
Well on Thursday I met this girl at a party, she has a great personality and I think we could be good friends, but I have no illusions this time I want to go slow and think a little before to take a risk and fall again.

 

Yes I have things to occupy my mind. Nicely done. thank you. Good luck to you also

 

I would say utilize this forum and other forums here. Also finding and doing things you enjoy can be helpful.

 

77 day
this day was a shitty day, i'm feeling so fucking lonely today.
Has passed already 77 days since the last time I saw porn, and I masturbate and the saddest thing is that sometimes still feel the same but I do not know how long it necessary to return to normal but what I know is that I will not back to watching porn or masturbate anymore

 

Day 40
I've been taking the last few days really chill and spent a lot of time relaxing. Time to start get moving again with the start of a new week. Also I had back to back wet dreams which always leave me feeling weird . It's really cool I'm at 40 though

 

Day 47.
Today I told a friend about this mission I'm on. And I appears to be more confident and both stronger and happier now she said.
It works!!! It works!!! Yeeaahh

 

Day 3
I have started to feel the difference.
I am certainly more energetic and positive.

 

Day 41
I wasted a lot of time today and wasn't happy but tomorrow is a new day.

 

Day 79.
So guys, I'm bored now but yesterday was so funny xD
I went to a strip club with my friends and I forget my ID so they do not let me into the club, my friend gave me the keys to his car and I get tired of waiting and started to learn to drive, it was great after who left the club, we went to eat and that was it.

 

Today should have been Day 48, but it's not... I have been sick for some days and couldn't sleep for three days because of bad caughing so last night I did M O.
I know I was supposed to stay strong, but somehow I hade some good sleep afterwards. I'm not feeling that bad as I thought I would (I DON'T encoruage other Nofap to do this.) I just closed my eyes and had a softcore and fine fantasy that I never would have had/or worked for me in the way I was before Nofap. I have no chaser effect yet and no urges at all. I shall continue with Nofap for my 100 days and hope to stay strong. I don't feel so sad about this as I didn't watch P and just had soft fantasy. If I fullfill the rest of the days, can I then look upon this as a full reset? I Do feel pure in my mind and heart this time and not at all as the guilt and anxienty that been standard everytime since I started PMO long ago. Please share with me what you think about this, your aspects on how I feel, and what to do next and also what to watch out for like chasereffect, and do you think I was all wrong in this?

 

Day 70!
Hello everyone! I was thinking what news I can provide you on this beautiful day, but not so much regarding my health improvement other than you already heard from me.
But there is something else I would like to share. After doing some research I accidentally ran into couple proven negative evidence about fapping and I finally realized why I had those problems.
For those who dont know I had lots of bad side effect because fapping, like:
- skin problems
- eye problems
- tinnitus
- geographic tongue
- complete numbness/feeling slow and retarded (mental slowness)
- my wounds didnt heal fast enough
- Didnt smell and taste as good as now
- Hair loss
- Lost appetite
- etc.....

Well, if you google it up, these symptoms are exactly the result of ZINC-DEFICIENCY
After more googleing I found out we lose zinc every time we FAP. I was fapping like a machine every day for 13 years.
Thanks to nofap, I stopped losing zinc, thats why I feel now as superman . My skin is super soft, my eyes are perfect, I smell, I taste again, no tinnitus or geographic tongue. The slowest healing process is losing the mental slowness, but I feel every day an improvement. I finally wake up happy and start my day smiling. Still tho, I feel I didn't heal completely. Not sure if 90 days will be enough to recover completely after 13 years of daily fapping, but probably not.
Ether way I think I will be able to quit fapping forever. Too much to lose with this retarded behavior..

How is everybody else doing?

 

It depends on your goals. You should definitely watch out for the chaser effect. Maybe make a separate counter for P and MO? What you ultimately decide is up to how you feel about it and what you think will be the most effective way to keep yourself away from P.

 

I'm fascinated how after just a few weeks of not PMOing, I notice certain behaviors of mine that I wasn't aware of before. I'm keenly aware of how much I people please. Glaringly aware, and starting to work on stopping that behavior.

Rebooting is very much a healing process for me. I feel closer to my fiancé than I have in a while. Our sex life is improving.

One thing I've noticed that I noticed in previous reboots is right around week 2 and 3, I become extremely sensitive to women that are dressed provocatively. I have a visceral reaction. It's a combination of lust and longing. It will pass, but it feels shitty. Like a deep hunger that can't be fed.

I'm also experiencing, as I have in previous reboots, that inexplicably, friends will text me porn or sexual photos out of the blue. They don't know I'm rebooting, it just seems to happen when I'm rebooting. I also have a client that I met with that had a skin mag on his desk and the cover photo triggered me!! All part of the reboot and thankfully I worked through it all.

I hope my fellow rebooters are staying the course. Here to listen if anyone is struggling.