99 Days until my 43 Birthday, I need your Prayers and Support.

dannylomora · Nov 11, 2016

I've been posting on Nofap since July, I won't go through my story, but it's about as bad as any member who has been gutted by this. if there was an award for the person most screwed over by porn/masturbation and the hell that may come with it, I think Vegas would like my odds of winning.

It's 99 days until my 43rd birthday, I would like to make it to that day and be porn and masturbation free, wake up the day after and hit the 100 mark. I want be free of this, to be able to get and and maintain an erection like a man, to be able to say it's not a part of me anymore. This addiction started in 2004 and since then has consumed me. I lost a great wife to this; likely lost children I never had. I've quit only to relapse, and only to binge, cause I might as well keep going once I start. I know what this is, why it does it, how it does it, where it takes you, what it leaves you. But I have not been able to stop. The screwed up thing reading the countless posts on here, I can relate, understand, and theorize with anybody when it comes to porn/masturbation. I can stop this I know I can, I can do it. I can be free, I will be free. Walk with me.

mcrcvrng · Nov 11, 2016

Do you have a journal, or is this serving as your journal? APs?

dannylomora · Nov 11, 2016

mcrcvrng said: ↑

Do you have a journal, or is this serving as your journal? APs?
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I don't have a journal not sure if you mean an external one or if NoFap provides some type of online journal. I just posted my feelings cause it's midnight and I began my journey of being free of this horrid addiction. Dan

mcrcvrng · Nov 11, 2016

Ok, it seems like a lot of people keep an on-going journal, you see it in the age sections on the forum.

And how about accountability partners?

dannylomora · Nov 11, 2016

mcrcvrng said: ↑

Ok, it seems like a lot of people keep an on-going journal, you see it in the age sections on the forum.

And how about accountability partners?
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Thanks for the advice, I tried a partner once, didn't get much feedback. I honestly was thinking about maybe doing Noah Churche's consultations, it's like $200. But I need to do this on my own......

douggie1962 · Nov 11, 2016

Since you are asking for prayer, lets put a spiritual spin on this.
Matthew 16:24(NIV)
24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.

Sadly we live in an age where we are afraid of or don't consider denying ourselves anything. Ever consider that HBO is not a necessity in life. I cut the cord of cable and dish communications years ago. In addition to saving money, I eliminated exposure to a lot of triggering content. As I am beginning this journey to rediscover the natural man, I am beginning to understand that staring at the artificial reality of a video screen is a perversion of my powers of observation given to me for survival. Watching a football game on TV is great, that is until the required camera shot of the bouncing cheerleader. What I am saying brother is that we have to be willing to break and break hard from the mind control devices of the world. When we sit in front of a screen, we are giving the programmers permission to control our minds with the images they have scripted to place before us.
Be Strong Brothers.

dannylomora · Nov 11, 2016

douggie1962 said: ↑

Since you are asking for prayer, lets put a spiritual spin on this.
Matthew 16:24(NIV)
24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.

Sadly we live in an age where we are afraid of or don't consider denying ourselves anything. Ever consider that HBO is not a necessity in life. I cut the cord of cable and dish communications years ago. In addition to saving money, I eliminated exposure to a lot of triggering content. As I am beginning this journey to rediscover the natural man, I am beginning to understand that staring at the artificial reality of a video screen is a perversion of my powers of observation given to me for survival. Watching a football game on TV is great, that is until the required camera shot of the bouncing cheerleader. What I am saying brother is that we have to be willing to break and break hard from the mind control devices of the world. When we sit in front of a screen, we are giving the programmers permission to control our minds with the images they have scripted to place before us.
Be Strong Brothers.
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The funny thing the only time I really watch television is for college football and Nascar. I can literally sit through an entire college game and a Nascar race. Likely cause I'm stimulated from the excitement. I played college football and grew up around a couple of guys who ended being and still are big people in Nascar. But I can not watch a movie, sitcom, etc. And I'm certain that lack of attention has to do with the quick and sudden pleasure I get from masturbating to porn online. Movies. sitcoms, news, etc do not stimulate me. Last Saturday night I had been porn free for two days when a sex clip on the most random of movies sent me into a day long binge; it was that easy.

I understand that triggers come in all shapes and sizes; but television and internet are sure fire avenues of giving in to my temptations. I have to be strong.

Andrew14 · Nov 11, 2016

dannylomora said: ↑

I've been posting on NoFap since July, I won't go through my story, but it's about as bad as any member who has been gutted by this. if there was an award for the person most screwed over by porn/masturbation and the hell that may come with it, I think Vegas would like my odds of winning.

It's 99 days until my 43rd birthday, I would like to make it to that day and be porn and masturbation free, wake up the day after and hit the 100 mark. I want be free of this, to be able to get and and maintain an erection like a man, to be able to say it's not a part of me anymore. This addiction started in 2004 and since then has consumed me. I lost a great wife to this; likely lost children I never had. I've quit only to relapse, and only to binge, cause I might as well keep going once I start. I know what this is, why it does it, how it does it, where it takes you, what it leaves you. But I have not been able to stop. The screwed up thing reading the countless posts on here, I can relate, understand, and theorize with anybody when it comes to porn/masturbation. I can stop this I know I can, I can do it. I can be free, I will be free. Walk with me.
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I hear you and can't help recall the pain that my PMO caused in my failed marriage, too. But PLEASE know there's hope with your new NoFap life. I was single for nearly 15 years after my wife left me and our kids for another man. During that time, I sank deep and deeper into a world of solo porn and masturbation which resulted in severe delay ejaculation. Then I met a wonderful girl and together we worked to get me on track. It took only 30 days of hard mode NoFap and the DE was gone! That was more than a year ago, and we have about the most loving, tender and sexy relationship that we could ever have imagined in our wildest dreams. You can have this, too! Blessings

dannylomora · Nov 11, 2016

Andrew14 said: ↑

I hear you and can't help recall the pain that my PMO caused in my failed marriage, too. But PLEASE know there's hope with your new NoFap life. I was single for nearly 15 years after my wife left me and our kids for another man. During that time, I sank deep and deeper into a world of solo porn and masturbation which resulted in severe delay ejaculation. Then I met a wonderful girl and together we worked to get me on track. It took only 30 days of hard mode NoFap and the DE was gone! That was more than a year ago, and we have about the most loving, tender and sexy relationship that we could ever have imagined in our wildest dreams. You can have this, too! Blessings
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Hi, thanks for the words of encouragement. Yes, to be brutally honest, my marriage ended three years ago this month, and even though since those three years I have been in a couple of failed relationships and experienced below average to terrible sex, my porn/masturbation habit has become a complete monster. I'm really encouraged that 30 days of noflap cured your ED. To this day, if I avoid porn and masturbation for even just a day, I awake with the hardest and most intense erections you can imagine. It gives me hope that all the mechanics to enjoy sexuality like it's meant to be is there, I just have to fix my mind. How bad was your porn induced erectile dysfunction if I may ask? Dan

Deleted Account · Nov 18, 2016

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