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Day 7

 

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Day 0

Guys, I'm in such a bad shape I won't even lie to you... I relapsed. Not only that but I binged too...
I was thinking whether or not I should post some thing because honestly I'm so ashamed and so disappointed. I also started having flashbacks of a traumatic situation that I'm just coming from... and I have been kinda having some dark thoughts lately like I was when I was in that position. I don't know what to do... anyway I had to let it out... I guess it's back to the drawing board.

 

Thanks. Looks like that tracker site is having issues with new signups at the moment. They have a message on the login page. Will have to try again some other time.

 

Day 3. Time to hit the cold shower!

 

Cold shower was a complete success. Started off nice and hot and gradually cooled down and it was actually really invigorating by the end.

 

Another relapse today. I let everyone down, I let nofap down, and I let myself down. I don't know how much longer I can take. I'm awfully ashamed. I'm so sorry...

 

Day 40 now. Still going strong. Still the odd urge by fighting through. Keep going. Filling my days again which helps!

 

Make the sacrifice friend, I assure you it's worth, you will not feel more shame.

 

I'll give it a go. Thanks.

 

Day 4 is nearly over and still observing fapstinence. The idea of rebooting is becoming more and more appealing. I had such a great conversation yesterday evening. I felt freer and more spontaneous than I have for ages. I also feel pressure building but cold shower in morning is really helpful to cool me down. This website is a treasure and a game changer. Thank you!

 

After a devastating failure, I'm on it again.Clean since yesterday.

 

We are all in thus together Sam.

 

Hello Day 5.

 

Today, at day 89 I finally had a wet dream
I was planning to pmo at day 90, because my bag was way too heavy , but now I can continue without resetting the counter

 

Day 2. Hoping to remain strong, and to get better.

 

day 3 here. Going strong but the slightest hint or femininity makes me go wild.

 

Had a 12 day streak going--then off the back end of therapy, wife slowly starting to accept my issue, and starting to feel the momentum, I gave in to the urge yesterday and today. All it took was accidentally bringing home a customer's pocket wifi (I work in Telecommunications), and the temptation overwhelmed me. It's literally like every time I start feeling better and climbing out of the bottom of the pit, PMO halts my progress, and sends me crashing face first back into the abyss. Worst part is I have a hard time telling my wife about it, and become really anxious at the thought of telling her, even though I know it should be immediately spoken about. Unfortunately, due to this more so than the PMO she has left tonight, taking the 3 kids with her. Part of me wants to curl up and die to be quite honest. That part of me doesn't care about life anymore, and finds it easier to just die than to keep fighting this demonic curse. But, a small part of me wants to fight. A tiny part of me wants to live a "real" life, and experience life without PMO. I'm clinging to that tiny part of me that wants to fight. I don't know what happens next with my family, but I know I need to keep fighting--even if I'm just fighting alone without them by my side. Looking forward to Day 1 tomorrow!

 

Day 2 since my relapse. I realized that P-subs are the main cause of relapses. I will try to fight this new enemy of mine.

 

12 day streak is a great achievement. I haven't managed that yet.