NoFap

  1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

I screwed up

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by I_will_be_free, May 27, 2014.

  1. May 27, 2014 #1
    I_will_be_free

    I_will_be_free Fapstronaut

    15
    0
    1
    Well, I was doing good. Went 5 days without PMO, then yesterday I started really fighting it. School stuff is fast during the summer semester, and I went to the beach... I thought I was doing ok, but when I got home thoughts were flying though my head about how nice it would feel to fap.

    Long story short, I edged... then PMO'ed. Now, I'm depressed. I reset my counter.... And I downloaded K9 for my computer. I guess it's good I made it though the weekend. That's been a HUGE struggle for me since I can remember!
     
    I_will_be_free, May 27, 2014
    I_will_be_free, May 27, 2014
    #1
  2. May 27, 2014 #2
    CheshireCat2323

    CheshireCat2323 Fapstronaut

    86
    20
    8
    You went five days, now do six. When you reach six, don't fap. Simple =)

    In all seriousness though, when you get urges like that, take a very very very cold shower. You won't have them anymore.
     
    CheshireCat2323, May 27, 2014
    CheshireCat2323, May 27, 2014
    #2
  3. May 27, 2014 #3
    AnythingIsPossible

    AnythingIsPossible Fapstronaut

    599
    13
    18
    You didn't screw up, relapsing is a natural part of addiction recovery. If you didn't relapse you either didn't have a serious problem or you just aren't human.

    “The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”


    Don't beat yourself up over it, this is just another wall you need to smash through. You are here of your own accord, ignoring the pressure society imposes, because you want to change. If that's not proof that you have the strength to beat this thing I don't know what is. Head up and back in the game bro :D
     
    AnythingIsPossible, May 27, 2014
    AnythingIsPossible, May 27, 2014
    #3
  4. May 28, 2014 #4
    I_will_be_free

    I_will_be_free Fapstronaut

    15
    0
    1
    Cold showers! So that's where they play in.... I've read about how people have raved about how helpful they are, and now this makes sense. thanks for the idea/suggestion CheshireCat2323


    Jakob - Wonderful advice on the walls. That really lifted my spirits.

    Thanks a lot guys. I can't say how thankful I am for your help during a slip.
    On the way home last night I was thinking about all of this stuff... I was thinking about how porn has been part of my life for so many years, and how I have had relatively little romantic stuff in my life while that's been around. It's like my little escape mechanism for a sucky romantic life - and to let go is one of the scariest things I've ever thought of.

    And yet, I there is a part of me that is just so sick of living that way. It's like years of emotional torture of fake romance/intimate connection on a screen as opposed to it in person. On top of this, it is also a way of escaping anxiety/discomfort (in the moment)... and you have a power-packed addiction.

    So in the car, on the way home, i decided I'm going to fight this with every breath in my body. So here is to getting up and trying again. Thanks for helping me back up. :)
     
    I_will_be_free, May 28, 2014
    I_will_be_free, May 28, 2014
    #4

Share This Page